Sometimes

Bella at the zoo

There are some days lately – as I start to become less sick, less tired, a little more hopeful – that I look at all we’ve gone through in the past three years and all we are both facing and looking forward to in the upcoming months…

And I feel happy again.

Little bits. Tiny moments of joy where Bella sits next to me chatting, I knit, Sam and I talk, Charlie is on his bed at our feet, the cats are probably somewhere barfing. It all spins together and I feel just so fiercely proud and protective of what we have. Our memories, our hurts, our ability to come back together time and again. Sometimes I feel like we could face anything at this point.

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Chomping Down on Goldfish® Crackers

Between the three of us, we’ve eaten so many Pepperidge Farm® Goldfish® crackers over the years that I’m sure someone at Pepperidge Farm has a new car on us. Sam and Bella love them, and they seem to be the perfect snack for nearly any situation – especially something quick on a car trip. Bella attends an hourly class on our military post a few days a week, and by the time we get out the door, we’ve usually missed their morning snack. They have an early lunch, but this doesn’t seem to help much when she decides she’s hungry. I’ve started packing a snack for her, both something that will help for on the way there, and last until I pick her up in the early afternoon and she’s hungry again. Goldfish crackers for the win. Goldfish Crackers Snack Ideas for Kids Most of you know she adores (ADORES) dinosaurs. Everything she has is somehow worked into a dinosaur or for a dinosaur. Pottery Barn dollhouse? Dinosaur romping spot. Teepee? Dino sleeping area. My bed? Perfect to make into small volcanoes. So when it comes to her snack, I had a little time on my hands one morning and a fun idea while she was getting ready for the day. Goldfish Crackers Snack Ideas This is super easy to do. It took me about 8-10 minutes total. I’m not a “fun snack” mom, because I forget until after Bella eats that something cute could have been made from it, but we do have days where I remember and she has a lot of fun when I show her something I did. Goldfish Crackers Snack Ideas 1 So for this snack, I created a little dino (also can be a dragon/alligator) to chomp on the Goldfish crackers butterfly. You’ll need: (seriously, this is so easy)

  1. Goldfish crackers
  2. Another dry snack or sturdy fruit (I picked orange slices)
  3. A sandwich sized ziploc bag (snack is too small)
  4. A clothespin
  5. Paper/markers/googly eyes/pipe cleaner

Fill the bag with crackers and dry snacks. Separate evenly and twist 2-3 times. Use pipe cleaner to wind around middle and keep it from coming undone. Cut small triangles for the teeth. Glue on. Use googly eyes (or draw your own). Cut out a small row of spikes from colored paper or color your own. Glue on. Let dry for a minute. Chomp that right onto the middle of the bag. Goldfish Crackers Snack Ideas 2 And there you have it! The great part of this is the clothespin can be used again and again. Except if you’re Bella. And you take the clothespin off and play with it and forget about the snack you couldn’t live without five minutes before. :) Goldfish Crackers Snack Ideas 4

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I’m Tired.

It’s 2:00. I’m alone in a cafe, having spent the past two hours in a intense therapy session. I took an additional two hours after with Bella at her hourly care so I can work.

It’s my last week of my current term of school. Lots to do there.

I haven’t written here in a while. Several in drafts.

I have calls to make. Appointments to check.

And here I sit. Scrolling through pages mindlessly as I avoid this. Writing.

Because I feel like I should be ok. My writing should be about me healing. I’m healing y’all! Expecting a surprise baby and I’m just healing away over here. 

I’m pregnant. It’s a girl. Things are good so far. Sunday was Preston and Julian’s birthday – 3 years. And we spent a quiet day at home together.

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About a Girl

I look down at my growing stomach (4th pregnancy isn’t joking around y’all) and it’s so odd after two pregnancies and three boys and six boy names to know this one is a girl.

I’m excited for Bella to have a sister, and I’m honestly really excited to do girl stuff all over again. I saved many of Bella’s things. Hauled it through all our moves. Stored it in the closets. When I was toward the end of my pregnancy with Kaden, Sam and I talked about having one more.

I’d had a feeling pretty early on that this baby might be a girl, since my morning sickness pattern was so close to being pregnant with Bella. I didn’t take any medication with her for that until second trimester, so I remembered it really well. And this time, no meds again since we don’t know what triggers a ciHHV-6 activation.

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We Are Having A…

Friday our doctor’s office called us with testing results, I’d had the verifi Prenatal test (p.s. I have no affiliation with them, just linking since it’s rather new to the testing game) which is why we found out gender so early. Everything is fine – it doesn’t change the risk with ciHHV-6, but it does eliminate other issues or complications. That’s why we opted to do this, in case there was something that might be a bigger risk with ciHHV-6.

And then the nurse asked, “Would you like to know the gender?” It was one of those moments where the whole world stops for a second – you know whatever words come next are going to change your life. And they did. I started to cry and told her, “You just made my whole day,” and she was so excited – it was wonderful.

So then once we knew, and Bella knew we knew (and wasn’t about to wait to find out), I ran out and bought balloons, came home and searched for a box – finding the only one big enough but barely fit in. Then we realized my camera battery was dead. And once Bella opened the box, the jammed in balloons didn’t come out and Sam had to help her pry them out and I forgot to turn the phone the right way and then the video was a mess to try to clip together –

Bella Gender Reveal 1

Best laid plans y’all. So I scrapped it, did a short clip of her cutest moment, and found one of my favorite pics I snapped.

Ready? :) Turn up your sound, she gives a little squeal that melts my heart.

(not sure if it was because of the gender or just the fact that she loves balloons that.much.)

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