{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
{Writing on}
19 Comments
Jen
March 11, 2011 at 9:50 pm
One day at a time right? Keep busy as much as you can. The nights are the worst so do what you can then. Know that there are lots of people who are here (virtually) for you.
And I totally thought you were topless 😉
Noelle S.
March 11, 2011 at 11:12 am
((hugs)) This made me cry. I can’t even imagine how you felt dropping him off. I just took Hudson to California and it was a very long 6 hour and 40 minute flight! However, the flight attendants and all the passengers around me were GREAT and supportive of my flying alone with a nursing infant. He fussed a bit but no one even noticed as they all had earphones on listening to music and watching tv. So, even if she cries the whole time it will be ok and totally worth it to see Sam.
Becca
March 10, 2011 at 10:55 pm
(((Hugs)))
themanager
March 10, 2011 at 3:47 pm
stay strong mama! I can’t say I know what you are going through at all but I want you to know I’m here for you. we can chat, text, Twitter maybe even Skype(?). I hope the time flies by for you & you enjoy some of the time to knit or watch really girly movies 🙂
Branson
March 10, 2011 at 1:52 pm
Okay so you WEREN’T naked? LOL! You are a beautiful person even when you aren’t trying. You can do this, and we will all be here to help however we can. I so wish I lived nearby! I would be at your house all the time with ice cream and then of course some crazy workout dvd so we could eat that ice cream every day without guilt 😉 Hang in there honey! Sending great big e-hugs because it is all I got!
p.s. what is your hubby’s name? I feel like I should know… want to add him to my prayer list.
kim
March 10, 2011 at 12:27 pm
*throat punches Luna who obviously didn’t even watch the vlog, then leaves a comment and is all ‘thanks and love’ and whatever. Diana.is.hurting. and end rant* You know I think you’re amazing and strong, right? And you’ve got a great support system in place so work it 🙂 And use some yarn therapy if needed. Also? I thought, for a brief flicker of a moment that the pillow was a comforter and you were naked, then I was like, “Uh, it’s DIANA” and, you are a pretty crier. Really. You don’t get that ugly face like most of us do. Well done!! 🙂
Teresa
March 10, 2011 at 11:22 am
OMG. You made me cry. That has to be so hard, I can’t even imagine!! Praying for you and Bella, and your husband too.
P.S. My 22 mo daughter hates elevators too.
luna
March 10, 2011 at 10:49 am
thanks so much for your comment on my scarymommy post! i loved your scary mommy post!
Brooke
March 9, 2011 at 11:38 pm
stay strong mamacita! you are amazing. just think how fast bella the months go by with kiddos – the months sam is gone will fly by too.
Jen
March 9, 2011 at 8:21 pm
My heart is breaking for you, and I have been thinking about you guys all week. You have an amazing support system, and I will just let you know that you can call, text, or email any time. If you’re ever feeling down and just need to cry, or just missing Sam, feel free to call me any time. I love you friend, and I’ll be praying for you!!
Alena
March 9, 2011 at 7:29 pm
I could give you lots of tips and advice…but I’m just going to tell you that I’m thinking about you. And you’re right…it WILL get easier. It just does. You will push yourself and you’ll be more amazing than you realized before. You’ll be an even more amazing Momma than you knew you could be. And a more amazing wife!
If you need to talk you know I’m here!
Lisa
March 9, 2011 at 1:44 pm
big hugs!!!!! I can’t imagine honestly. thoughts are with you
Devan @ Accustomed Chaos
March 9, 2011 at 10:04 am
sending you lots and lots of love friend. SUCH an adjustment. Im here if ever you need to chat.
Sara
March 9, 2011 at 9:22 am
Oh, honey I was thinking about you last night. And I’ll keep thinking about you.
Crystal
March 9, 2011 at 9:16 am
oh girl! I know it is SO hard. It rips my heart out because I’ve been there. It usually takes me a month to get “used” to him being gone. I have to not think about what he’s missing. I have 4 boys…he misses a lot. But I can’t let my mind go there.
Like I said before tweet me anytime, email or my blog.
Jessica @ The Happy Spitter
March 9, 2011 at 12:33 am
I can’t even imagine how tough it is for you. Hang in the there! You have so many people here for you, including me!
Alyssa Gamlin
March 9, 2011 at 12:10 am
Hang in there hun!
cathy
March 8, 2011 at 11:24 pm
It looked like you were under a blanket and i’m thinking, “is she even wearing a shirt, what kind of vlog is this?” ha ha. I’m here for you and thinking about you <3 I'm coming up this weekend whether you like it or not woman
Erika
March 9, 2011 at 2:29 pm
haha Cathy… I was thinking the same thing!
Diana – I love you so much and my heart is breaking for you and, if you need me to be there now, I’ll be on a plane as soon as humanly possible! I’m going to try to come out soon anyway.
I know you probably don’t feel like talking right now, but please call, text, or email me your travel plans when you have a chance so I can schedule around you.
XXXOOO!
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