This week has been exhausting. And while I don’t want to be a complainer – I do want to be honest on here.
I can only remember being this tired the months after Bella was born. But for that I had a reason. She never slept and I had massive amounts of unnatural energy during the day that allowed me to clean nonstop and regret it at night.
But this feels odd. At 6 weeks, I don’t look pregnant, so sometimes I forget I am and wonder what on earth is wrong with me. I haven’t done much during the day – not anything out of the ordinary, and then I need a nap when she naps.
How did I do this and teach full time when I was pregnant with her?
Thankfully Bella takes great naps (2 1/2 – 3 hours) so I can get a few things done and then pass out. Sam has been a huge help this weekend. He’s so cute about it all. So excited and nervous. He wanted to know the other night if I was sure I was still pregnant. I told him that I couldn’t prove it but was pretty sure I was. lol
There is a certain sense of peace and calmness in our home this time around. Sam is sober, so am I, our marriage is strong and back on track, money isn’t overflowing but our needs are met. It’s just… different. I am enjoying every moment we have on this journey together.
Nausea has increased. No vomiting so far, although the other night I got pretty close. It’s the nighttime that kills me, and it was the same with Bella. This morning I was pretty sick, then I had a terrific craving for a chicken sandwich with mustard and pickles.
I got it and it was terrible. Stupid Chick-fil-A.
I have food aversions – last night I had to cook shrimp. Ew. I crave cold milk and cereal.
All in all, I have moments but I feel ok. Still thrilled and excited – starting to feel/see a little bump which is amazing.
– Thursday afternoon I meet my midwife. She has a YouTube video about midwifery that I’ve watched so I “know” her a little, but I’m still nervous. I really want to like her and vice versa. I’ll find out my real due date and get to ask her all my questions.
– We get a in depth tour of the Women’s Pavilion and birthing wing at our hospital this Saturday. It’s brand new so no one’s even used it yet.
If anyone has ideas of meal planning during first tri that is quick and limited on smells, I’d love to hear it. Also looking for links on questions to ask a midwife who does hospital births?