The funny thing about 1st trimester is

January 20, 2012

you don’t really feel pregnant. You just feel like someone who needs to start thinking about going on Weight Watchers, has the flu, and a super human sense of smell.

I don’t mind getting bigger. I actually can’t wait for a pregnant belly to rub again. The fact that I’ve already had to stop buttoning my pants just shy of 5 weeks assures me that I may well get my wish a bit sooner than expected.

5 weeks people. Is that some kind of record?

I LONG for my maternity clothes. I can remember putting them away and being ever so sad. Partially because regular clothes no longer fit, but neither did maternity.

Then I discovered Spanx and the world was righted again.

Besides the fact that I am expanding rapidly, I had the thought in Target today that should someone ask me how far along I was, I would tell them 2 months. Maybe 3.

I don’t think I could say 5 weeks and look them in their judging eyes.

So maybe I’d just say I didn’t know I even was. Shock them.

Then there is the queasy feeling of being on a boat all day (the SNL song “I’m on a boat” complete with hands in the air and a jacket blowing in the wind plays over and over in my mind) and in all honesty it’s actually…

Nice.

I’m not insane. When you spend the better part of a year hurling up Cheerios and Top Ramen and beg the nurse for Zofran 2 hours before you push your kid out and FINALLY STOP THE BARFING MADNESS – the feeling of just being nauseated is quite pleasant. It’s a reminder that all is well with my little one, and to take it easy till it passes.

May it stay this way.

I get “sick” at night, and in the late morning. Sometimes afternoon. Always when driving. It’s more of a pounding headache coupled with an upset stomach and being dizzy. I lay down with my ginger tea and do nothing for a little while. At night anyway. When Bella is up there isn’t much of that.

She’s been a doll lately. Today I passed out on the couch by accident and woke up to her kissing me on the forehead. That was super cute. She understands I don’t feel good and is more than willing to snuggle with me for a while when I need her to be still. Thank goodness for Netflix and Blue’s Clues. There are times I simply have to turn the tv on so I can rest.

Sam, who has been really sweet as well, has to do kitty litter duty again ::insert evil laugh here:: but it’s actually not that great because I can totally smell it all day – even fresh, and it makes me ill. Yesterday I just closed the door and then forgot. We had some very angry kitties by the time I remembered.

Things are good. I’m focusing on right now and not later, and suprisingly, I’m not anxious about my pregnancy – or having another. There was a point a few weeks ago that I suddenly realized I could do this. Maybe more than just this time too. I’ll blog about that later.

So far, so good. It’s early, but things are steady and manageable. I can feel the thoughts and prayers and well wishes, I get the emails, comments, tweets, and sweet FB messages and it helps. Tremendously. So thank you for taking the time to remember us and do that.

Now if you’ll excuse me – I have to slip into the pajamas I’ve been dreaming about because there is a stretchy waistband and watch The Daily Show with Sam.

6 Comments

  • Jessi J.

    January 21, 2012 at 4:25 pm

    Yep the belly grows earlier earlier each time. Hang in there!

  • Anne-Marie

    January 20, 2012 at 9:26 am

    Funny story… I don’t know if I’m pregnant or not, yet, and won’t know for a few more days, probably. But last night, we were in NYC to see my psychiatrist, and I *really* wanted to go to this Swedish kids/maternity store that opened this winter. I found these amazing plaid pajama pants, and I figured hey, I’ll be pregnant before too long, they are on sale, I am so scoring these! The best part was–I was terrified the sales lady would ask how far along I was or if we had kids or whatever. And she didn’t! She was just super smiley and friendly and rang me up. They are these:
    http://www.polarnopyretusa.com/index/page/product/product_id/3234/category_id/15/product_name/FESTIVE+CHECK+PAJAMA+BOTTOMS+%28ADULT%29
    You should get some. OMG the comfort!

  • Caitlin MidAtlantic

    January 20, 2012 at 8:38 am

    I was totally unbuttoning my pants at 5 weeks this go ’round! And wistfully caressing my previous maternity wardrobe, wondering when I could bust it out again.

    Funny thing, though, about my maternity clothes from before. I definitely remembered them with rose-colored lenses! Every time I pulled an old favorite out of that bag, I wondered what I loved so much about it before!

  • Lynn

    January 20, 2012 at 8:38 am

    What I was saddest about when putting away maternity clothes: having to remember to zip my pants. Enjoy those expandable waistbands! And feel better, too.

  • Autumn

    January 20, 2012 at 8:24 am

    I love this! I am so right there too. Especially with the early expansion 🙂

  • Jen

    January 20, 2012 at 7:29 am

    Yeah you ” expand” a lot faster every pregnancy. With Brighron I was completly in maternity at 15 weeks with Ashland it was 13 weeks, I started out a lot smaller before getting preggo with her though. Im glad the m/s isnt too bad so far this time. Just continue to take it easy and enjoy it!

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