We waited till Bella turned two before trying for another. When we finally wrapped our head around another.
We wanted the kids to be enough apart that I wouldn’t have two in diapers. Two tiny ones screaming. One of the two would be able to be communicated with. I’d still have naps to blog – because after all, they’d both be in naps. Simultaneously. Since I only had two and all. 2 under or over 3 sounded lovely.
That was the plan.
::gasps for breath::
The best laid plans of mice and men…
However it worked out, I am starting to find myself SO very thankful we did wait. Regardless of a singleton or twins on the way. I knew before Bella was born, having been a daycare worker, preschool then kindergarten teacher, and nanny – my temperament would not be the best for two under two or even close to that. I needed time and space between the kids. Some moms can have pulled 3 under two off – and ladies – I tip my high strung hat to you and your awesomeness. That is not me.
Watching Bella these past few weeks has made me realize what a big help she will be in so many ways when BO & GO get here. But because I don’t want her to be a built in nanny or grow up too fast, I’m also thankful she has the ability to play on her own, have playdates, and be with Daddy as his little girl when my hands are full. I love knowing that in these next few months, she’ll understand more and more of the massive changes coming our way. I’ll be able to read her books to help, rationalize with her a bit when the babies need me, and while it will still be a shock and take a long time to adjust (for everyone), the fact that she’ll be nearly 3 gives me great comfort when I start to feel guilt over how much her little life will tip upside down.
I’m sure either way this would have worked out eventually. Things tend to do that – planned or not. As I keep reminding myself.
But inside? I’m sure glad they worked out in a tiny way to what I wanted in regards to my sanity. She’s going to be a fantastic big sister. I’m so glad I had nearly 3 years of just us time, that we are so bonded and have such special memories together of just us.
Now if Bella drops her nap before they’re born – someone is going to be cut.