Even before I lost the boys, I always had critics of writing online. Publicly. Baring my soul and airing the dirty laundry.
It isn’t often easy to keep going when you are mocked, told what you do is creating a fake world, or that you simply want attention. Especially when it comes from friends.
I’ll admit it, I blog partially for the feedback. For the community and the way you all make me feel when I say, “Man, today was rough,” or “Guess what?! This is amazing!” It’s validating to know other people are interested in my story and how we’re doing. It was healing to have people who knew what losing a pregnancy in second trimester was like. It’s been incredible to walk the same journey with others.
And yet, still I struggled with the answer for why I do this. Why I put our lives on here for everyone to read – when so many others go through our experiences or worse and never feel the need to share it like this? Why don’t I just write in a journal or make every one of these posts private?
Today as I drove to therapy I was listening to
I never listen to them. Super Christiany music isn’t really my style, but I got sucked into them. On a commercial break, the announcer comes on and says something about Robin from Good Morning America being hassled online for getting “too much” coverage of her cancer, mom dying, and bone marrow transplant. People were asking, “Why does this all need to be covered? Can’t Robin just do this and not want attention?”
The announcer then said the simplest, most profound thing. “We aren’t just sharing our lives – we’re sharing the life God created us to have. So in that, there’s no shame.”
What an incredible statement to make on something I’ve struggled with for so long. What a sense of freedom – this isn’t a mess or just me being an attention whore. Sure there is some of that. But this is also showing God’s hand in my life and yours. With the passion to write, we were called to share it with others, and this is one of the ways I choose to. And there isn’t anything wrong with honestly and openly telling your story.
Here’s to sharing the lives we were given by God – no matter what kind of life it is.