October 15th

October 15, 2012

I was going to do a whole post on here about loss, since today is the day of Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness.

But then I realized – life kinda sucks right now.

I’m 5 months out and really don’t want to remember. I wanted them.

I’m not ready to be ok with this yet. As wonderful as the loss community has been, being a part of it means I lost something I loved and wanted.

So today, with no babies, no adoption, and no idea of what will happen next, I simply give my life to God again and say, “You have it.”

I get to be sad and angry and feel lost today. We’ve been through a lot and it wasn’t what I expected. I never wanted October 15th to be anything personal to me.

 

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Babble:

Taking a Break

Timeline of an International Adoption

Pregnant Patients and the Hospital: Know Your Rights

Alcoholism, Adoption, and Honesty

I’ve Got Nothing

Attachment Parenting International:

Beyond Babies: Attachment Parenting in the Later Years

World Moms Blog:

Homeschooling an Only Child

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