The Waiting Place

November 5, 2012

There are many days around here where my life feels at a standstill. Personally, my home life. It feels familiar and yet out of place to only have Bella at home after this past year. I’ve been so, so busy with work that the times I get to look up and see how different things are from what I thought they would be by now is still a bit hard.

As much as I’ve tried to trust God for the path He wants me to be on, I have to admit there are days where I don’t have a clue what that means. Or where I’m headed. Or even if I’m still on the right track.

Days where God seems so very far away that I’m lost as to what to do.

I feel, and I’m sure others do as well, closer to God in the hard times. When things are good, God often gets pushed out of my mind. I feel that surge of, “I did it! I’ve got this” on whatever it might be.

These past 6 (6!) months have brought times of ups, downs, anxiety, impatience, strength, trust, but most of all…


Lots and lots of waiting. God has taken things out of my control so often that I almost hesitate to pray anymore, “If this isn’t your will though” for fear that I may never get my own will at all.

I can’t see the ending. I can’t see the other paths we didn’t get to take. But it sure is hard at the moment to think the one we’re being led down is the one God has in mind, when the others seemed pretty good to me.

Don’t get me wrong. I am blessed. I have so, so much to be thankful for, so much of what I have been given I also worried and fretted over in years past. Working from home, writing, a stronger faith, a healthy little girl, a husband who doesn’t drink, stable incomes, good relationships. All of these I can easily overlook in the moment of wanting more. There is a give and take in each thing I get, but when it comes at a price it’s hard to be completely thankful for it.

The waiting moments are the hardest. Harder at times than the hurt of being told no. I read a little book the other night that altered the way I thought about these period when God seems to be watching from the heavens while I wonder what took Him away. Waiting on God says, “God’s silence is not His absence. All of our Christian life we’re prepared to hear God speak to us, but nothing prepares us for His silence.”

How true. I can remember so many times hearing about God speaking. Rarely do we talk on when God doesn’t seem to be doing much of anything.

Then it says, “…God is never late, and He’s usually not early… He’s always right on time.”

My life is not my own. The things that are milestones that we feel entitled to as adults, sometimes we find out they have nothing to do with us. Nothing to do with how nice we are, how much money we have, how many Facebook friends like our posts :), how often we attend church. Those can’t control the path that God has laid out for us.

In my waiting place, I am learning to trust even more. To dig down and find where my faith is in the silence. To remember the good that I have, the many blessings my life is full of and thank God for giving me them – any of them. It’s hard. It’s easier to focus on what isn’t here.

Then I realize that what I have right now in my life, used to be the reason for a waiting place before.


  • Alexa

    November 25, 2012 at 9:38 am

    Great post. Waiting sometimes sucks. And it is so much easier to forget about our need of God when things are good. But it’s also so hard to understand why such horrific things happen to good people. Maybe we’ll understand one day.

  • melody

    November 10, 2012 at 4:07 pm

    So true. Waiting is so hard. What we want and how fast we get it and God’s timing is sometimes, So very, very different!

  • Kimberly

    November 10, 2012 at 3:46 pm

    I love that last line about how where I am now used to be a waiting place. We are always playing the waiting game. Makes me wonder how many blessings we miss while living a life of anticipation and not moments.

  • Ashley

    November 10, 2012 at 10:27 am

    This is beautiful & true. Waiting is always the hardest place for me. I found your post on She Shares this morning & I wanted you to know that I’m saying a prayer for you and your sweet family right now. I love your heart & your willingness to share it with the rest of us! So glad I came across your lovely blog today.

  • Sarah

    November 6, 2012 at 6:22 pm

    But some times I just want to throw a temper tantrum ala 2-3 year olds. Praying for you as you wait. God is still there and doing great things even though it’s quiet. I hate waiting too! Again, sending you prayers!

  • Kim

    November 6, 2012 at 11:27 am

    God’s timing is always perfect.Yes. But sooo hard to remember when we are in the thick of wanting something right then. I prayed for years to meet my husband, and instead dated ‘boy’ after ‘boy’ that needed fixing. I thought God wasn’t listening because He was silent. When I finally met the man who was to be my husband I heard that small, still voice speak up. And it was perfect timing.

  • Silva Jonson

    November 6, 2012 at 8:18 am

    Patience pays, though waiting can be really the hardest thing to do sometimes. That song is awesome Julie. I had fun listening to it.

  • Kate

    November 5, 2012 at 7:56 pm

    Time spent waiting on God is time never wasted.

    That’s a sign that hangs in my parents’ house. It drove me nuts as a kid because I didn’t like the fact that there were times when I wouldn’t necessarily hear all the answers that I wanted right when I wanted them. Then as an adult, I’ve been able to remember (or be taught) all the reasons why I have to wait on His answers. It’s always a humbling lesson.

    Great post, love it.

  • Julie O

    November 5, 2012 at 2:49 pm

    I forgot to share, I absolutely love this song and it has helped me through some waiting times. It’s from the movie Fireproof, which you should totally see if you haven’t already! 🙂

  • Julie O

    November 5, 2012 at 2:44 pm

    I agree, waiting seems to be the hardest part of life! What book were you reading?

  • LDiggitty

    November 5, 2012 at 2:02 pm

    Ugh. Waiting has never been my strong point… but I’m trying to exercise patience and trust as well! Thanks for the reminder.

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