Labor of Love {Video}

This might sound strange to some, but there are times I miss last May. I miss the absolute, total, complete longing for my sons and the feeling of being so close, remembering every moment like it was happening. I long to be that connected to them again, and wrapped up in my grief.

And so yesterday, I decided to put together a little slideshow of our time with them. Start to finish. I can’t do anything else but pray Jesus watches them till I get there, but there is an ache to be their earthly Mama still in some small way.

There are pictures of them in here, among other. They are babies; little, red, perfect babies. But I know this may trigger some of you, or others just may not be able to watch. It’s not gory, it’s just them wrapped up in our arms. All I ask is that if you do watch, please be kind. Know these are my children as much as if I were to post their 2 month pics on here with them chubby and smiling. It took a lot for me to put these pictures in this little remembrance of them.

I wanted to share it with you all, so you can see who you prayed and loved and cried for all those months with me. So they are real to everyone.


Memorial photos from the amazing Jen Swedhin Photography


  1. Allyson says

    What a beautiful Video. May it bring you comfort to know they are resting comfortably in the arms of Jesus. Wishes to an easy and safe pregnancy this time around.

  2. sabrina says

    Heartbreaking and yet beautiful! Thank you for sharing… so others can pray and grieve and hope with you. Hugs!

  3. says

    No words, only tears. And a swelling of love in my heart for you, your boys, your sweet family. Proud of you, new friend. So proud.

  4. says

    Tears. It’s beautiful. My heart hurts for you at what once but I know that what is coming will bring so much joy. You are so strong Diana and I am proud of you friend.

  5. Theresa says

    Tears of love for you! Thank you for sharing your precious boys! What a beautiful remembrance you made for them. ♥

  6. says

    So beautiful. I cannot express how much this video touched me. I also long so many times for those same feelings, experiences, and emotions etc! Thank you so much for sharing this.
    God Bless

  7. Kathryn says

    Absolutely beautiful. I am so proud of you, thank you so much for sharing your boys. Faith. Hope. Love. Times two<3

  8. Hannah says

    I found your blog through a tweet from Jessi at Naptime Diaries… this is a beautiful video and I watched it with tears streaming down my cheeks. You are such a brave mama and I am praying for Jesus to continue to be your strength through everything. Thank you for sharing your sweet little boys with us!

  9. Sarah Polleys says

    What a gorgeous video. And what beautiful boys! Praise God for them in heaven. They are living what we can only hope for.

  10. Joan says

    What a wonderful tribute to your sons. I know it was hard to make but be sure of one thing….they are smiling down from heaven knowing just how much their Mommy loved them and works hard at keeping their memory alive. Sending you a huge hug.

  11. says

    So beautiful, Diana. I cried from the second I hit play. What a blessing that you got to see and hold them for those precious moments.

  12. Debbie says

    Diana, what a beautiful tribute to your little boys. I am a friend of your mom’s from high school and college days. I have followed your blog and have prayed for you this past year. You are an inspiration to many as evidenced by the many comments. Blessings to you, Bella and Sam…and for a future little one. :)

  13. says

    this is so beautiful. thank you for sharing! it’s always so amazing to be reminded of how perfect babies are from the very beginning. God is so good and so creative.

  14. says

    Tears of love are being sent your way. I charished the time we spent pregnant together with our multiples. Your boys were so beautiful. I thank you for sharing the photos of them. Hugs to you. You’re so strong & doing so well!

  15. ChristieH says

    This is beautiful, and I commend you for honoring your boys by finding every way you can to remember them and solidify them in this life. Love you and your family!

  16. says

    They are so gorgeous and unbelievably tiny. Just absolute perfection. Thank you for sharing them with us. I wish I could give you a hug as I cry here with you. Sending you so much love.

  17. says

    Thank you so much for sharing such a video. It was absolutely beautiful. Praying for you as you remember that your boys are waiting for you and your hubbie. They are learning from the Master and wait patiently for you. Praying for your constant peace during the days ahead and for the new life within you!

  18. Elizabeth says

    Absolutely the most precious and beautiful video ever! This will go viral with so many moms and dads who will be able to relate to your pain and sorrow. I am one of them. I have lost four babies to miscarriage in the past few years. The pain is real and always there. Thank you soooo very much for sharing this priceless and beautiful video!

  19. Karen says

    Beautiful. I am so thankful for the hope we have of seeing our lost little ones again someday. God bless.

  20. says

    Tears. And a huge knot. What a sweet, sweet video and remembrance. I lost my 2nd baby at 6 or 7 weeks. I pray that God redeems in a mighty way.

  21. Alyssa says

    What gorgeous little boys and a very touching video. Julian and Preston are lucky to have been blessed with a mom like you.

  22. Allison says

    What a beautiful tribute to your two little sons. You are truly an amazing person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful family with us.

  23. Jill says

    You are amazing, and your faith in God is truly an inspiration. Thank you for sharing this video.

  24. Allie says

    Thank you for sharing – especially the pictures of your boys. I know it was really hard for you to put those up here, but they are beautiful.

  25. says

    I came over here from a link at A Cookie Before Dinner, expecting to see pregnancy news since that is what she had referred to and definitely wasn’t expecting this. You are so strong. May their memories be a blessing.

  26. Donna Magrini says

    Beautiful, and, and I am honored you shared this oh so private part of your life. Thank you. And I cried the entire way through….

  27. says

    Oh, honey. How brave of you. I can grieve the losses of so many women close to me so much more deeply, now that I’ve seen this. Thank you for that gift. Praying for you.

  28. Roma says

    Sending you healing hugs and grateful thanks for trusting us enough to share this beautiful tribute! God bless you and your family!

  29. Heather says

    Thank you so, so much for sharing your beautiful sons with all of us. Crying for you, and wishing you and your family (and the new little one!) great peace.

  30. Courtney says

    I have followed this entire journey and am so grateful for your authenticity throughout. The video is a wonderful, perfect memory for your two sweet boys. It had me in tears.

  31. says

    Tears :'( They were beautiful and this is a beautiful tribute to their lives. Somehow, I missed your amazing tattoos, but I absolutely love them. You are continuously in my prayers and thank you for sharing your family with us!

  32. says

    This is a beautiful and moving tribute. I lost my baby at 16 weeks around the same time as your loss and I cried and grieved with you. So many prayers in your direction as always. Thank you for being so brave for sharing your life and their lives with us all!

  33. says

    I am in tears. This was a beautiful tribute. I continue to be so touched by you and your story and I thank you for trusting us enough to share it. You are an inspiration and have such a beautiful spirit. Praying for you and your family.

  34. Kristin Maki says

    Thank you for sharing…what an incredible remembrance of two angels. You are an amazing woman. Continued prayers for you!

  35. Julie B says

    If God brings you to it, he will bring you thru it. You are one of the most amazing people God has put in my life, if only by computer. Thank you!

  36. Jenny says

    That is simply beautiful. I don’t know what else to say than that.

    It’s so comforting to me to read your posts. Over the holidays I lost my first little one at 5.5 weeks and now I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant again (only 3 weeks along but it’s all too familiar). I can’t imagine what it must have been like to lose the boys so far along. I pray every day for strength to just be at peace with whatever happens in this next pregnancy and beyond. I am so impressed by your strength and honesty here.

    Wishing you all the best.

  37. cindy luminoso says

    What an amazing tribute to your beautiful boys! May God bless them and watch over them as well as your family <3

  38. Larissa Andersen Connolly says

    I have no words… I lay here reading your blog once again
    and I am moved and inspired by your amazing strength.
    Each time I read I am flooded with emotion, from the first
    time I started following (when I found

  39. Larissa Andersen Connolly says

    I have no words ❤… I lay here reading your blog once
    again and I am moved and inspired by your amazing
    strength and courage. Each time I read one of your postings
    I am flooded with emotion. From the first time I stumbled
    upon your blog; when I found out that I, myself, am expecting
    twins, until this very moment. My heart goes out to you,
    your husband, your beautiful daughter and the rest of the
    lives close to you~ that were touched by your angels,
    Preston & Julian ❤ This was absolutely beautiful and I thank
    you for sharing. Love, Strength and Faith sent your way xo

  40. Mary Kay says

    Diana – that was just beautiful. I wish I had taken pictures of each week when I was pregnant with Jessica and with Alyssa. May God bless you and lots of love and hoppy with new baby on the way.

  41. says

    This video is perfect. Thank you for sharing your sweet boys with us. They are absolutely beautiful babies.
    Praying for you daily,
    Amanda in Cypress, TX

  42. Anne Leigh says

    That was a very beautiful video and tribute to your beautiful boys. I am so sorry for your loss.

  43. says

    Diana, words can’t express how sorry we are to hear of your loss last year. I’m completely speechless at the moment. I’m sorry I couldn’t watch your video, but your words spoke volumes to me. You are such a brave lady and it’s great you have shared your grief – it helps alot.

    Zoe xxxxx

  44. Vanessa says

    Your boys were absolutely gorgeous. What beautiful little souls. My heart goes out to you. I love the tattoo tribute. Thank you so much for sharing your heart.

  45. Sarah says

    Beautiful. What precious babies. Thank you so much for sharing these beautiful little ones with us all.

  46. Sera says

    I love how you’ve never lost your faith, that you held strong even through the worse of seasons. I love your tattoos they are beautiful, like your boys. You’re in my prayers constantly.

    Love sera_says ( from twitter)

  47. Mette Kramer says

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my son in 2010, and I too miss those days. I can totally relate to your comment, it does sound strange/weird to some, but I completely agree. My son was born at 34 1/2 weeks and we were lucky to have him for 35 days. I miss him, the closeness I had to him, and the narrowing of the world to him, his comfort, and each minute/hour. Nothing more than that. I miss that all-consuming grief I had at his passing.
    I’m so sorry for your loss. Your boys were just beautiful.

  48. Chanelle says

    This video is absolutely beautiful, heart-wrenching, but beautiful. It took a great deal of courage for you to share this with the world and I think your boys were absolutely perfect. I am so sorry for your loss but admire your strength and ability to remember and to share them with the world.

  49. Tina Rae Thompson says

    I only just found your site, through an article about your unfortunate treatment while at the hospital with your boys. I loved the video, it reminded me of my sister’s first pregnancy which she lost at 21 weeks. Hannan was only a little bigger than your boys. I wish she could share the photos she has like you have done, however, I understand her need to keep them for herself. it hurts everyone in the family when little ones are lost. I will be praying for you and your next baby, praying for health, strength, and healing for your heart and your soul. I know your little ones are watching out for your family in heaven. And I know that they are happy to have a little brother even if he is older than them.