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35 Weeks

I’m 35 weeks and 5 days. There are times when it shocks me to be this far along.

But then a lot of the time I’m like, “This is taking forever…” because I really want to be full term and meet him already!

I’m enjoying these last few weeks of pregnancy before our world changes again. For the better, but it’s not like I don’t remember those first sleepless months with Bella. I remember. Oh, through the fog and confusion and WHERE IS SHE OH SHE’S STRAPPED TO MY CHEST days – I do remember how it all feels.

Even though losing Preston and Julian has taught me to truly treasure moments of pregnancy/motherhood I would have never thought twice about before, the reality of the work a baby entails isn’t lost on me. Which I think it a really wonderful thing – I know what to expect and can prepare for it logically while also still being very excited and knowing I’ll survive.

Things have dramatically slowed down here lately. Partially it’s the heat, mostly it’s me. I simply can’t do a whole lot without bring out of breath or needing a nap. Even just getting dressed and makeup put on each morning causes me to have to lay down for 15 minutes before I can help Bella. So errands and appointments? We start those waaaaay early so that we’re actually out the door on time without me gasping for air.

Our evenings and weekends have a lot of “rest” time. We’re bound to have a significant amount of down time this next month after he’s here and then we prepare to move. I love that Sam takes Bella and Charlie out at night to run them (as they call it). He wrestles and runs back and forth until all three of them are ready to drop. It’s just about the best before bed routine you could ask for because Charlie is ready to plop and be still and Bella is exhausted.

Honestly though? A lot of the time right now I feel completely overwhelmed. Which is odd considering how I’m not doing a whole lot. But mentally – I have so much to try to figure out and remember and squeeze in that days like today I wonder how everyone else does it. I mean, I know we all don’t do it perfectly, just the trap of IG pics and Facebook often make me think, “What the heck am I doing wrong that everyone else seems to have more time than me?” I give myself a stern talk on time management and self control. I make a list. I get comfy.

Then I take a nap.

Sooooo.
;)

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Comments

  1. I read all the time but rarely comment. I have to say though – You’re ready!! Your life is going to be so blessed with this new little one in it, but I feel you on the “this is taking forever” thing. I’m 31 weeks pregnant with twin girls and I’m feeling you on that end – and on the “omg everything is exhausting” end.

  2. I read all the time too–first comment though. Remember that while you are working all of this stuff out in our head, it is every bit as exhausting as physical activity. No wonder you're tired! Give yourself a little grace…..it's a 5 week season left and then you'll be holding your new baby!

  3. Another long time reader, first comment. I’ve been hoping and praying for you all. You’re doing pretty darn good for 35 weeks. Cut your self some slack. And enjoy. :)

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