Praying for a Miracle

First – thank you. Thank you. I am overwhelmed by the love and generosity and I owe so many emails and dm’s a response and I promise to try to get to them as life settles down.

Kaden’s heart isn’t pumping almost any blood out of his lower ventricles into his body. While his stats are actually good, the definition of this is heart failure.

We have been told by Children’s Medical center here in Dallas that there is a small, small chance the heart can heal itself, but the real possibility is that he needs a heart transplant.

In the meantime, my parents are staying at our home with Bella while Sam and I are here. We each packed a small bag before racing out on Friday. The day we thought we would take him home from the hospital that instead turned into one of the worst days of our life at a final checkup before release. We are currently staying with friends and weighing where to go from here.

We’ve been briefed by everyone you can imagine on his situation. This is life threatening. We are looking into second opinions but El Paso had the same diagnosis.

Here’s what we need. I’m not one of those people who has such strong faith that I go boldly before my God with requests. I wish I was. Losing the twins has shaken me to the core. This pregnancy made me fall to my knees again and again. And this? Now my son lays on the verge of life and death as my hands are tied and my faith is rocked. I question it all. All the time. We are blown away by this, and I have to say I’m just barely holding it together and I’m so, so angry this is happening to our child.

But.

As crazy as its beginning to sound to even me – my God is a big God. He had different plans for Preston and Julian than my desperate prayers to let them live, but I still have a faint hope that miracles exist. And I’m asking – begging – all of you tonight with my broken Mama heart that misses all four of the children I can’t hold and feels like I’ve been dropped instead of carried – please pray for something specific. I may be let down (in my human eyes) again, but I just need us to do this for my son:

Pray that God heals his heart. Pray that the power of the Lord is shown through a miracle. Pray that even with my small faith, God can take my imperfect prayers and all of yours and turn this into something powerful. Something big.

I can’t do anymore. I have no strength to endure this without prayer. I’m emotionally done. But I believe as Beth Moore says in her book, “My God is who He says He is. He can do what He says He can.”

I’m praying with each breath that God hears my heart and let’s this be our miracle. Our son. Our life. Our daughter waiting to meet her brother.

Pray with me friends. Pray to our God that He will be there tomorrow as they do this sonogram on Kaden’s heart. Pray for a miracle for our little boy. Share this with everyone so we storm heavens gates with beseeching for an intervention. Fill in the gaps of my faith as we go before a God that loves us more than I can imagine.


Comments

  1. I’m praying. I’m believing. I’m sad and angry too. I am so sorry you have to endure this. I’m praying for sweet Kaden, and for your family.

    • I will be praying for your family and your gorgeous son. Our God is greater and stronger than anything we can possibly envision and most importantly He is with you always. Much love from Trinidad.

  2. Sending prayers for you all.

  3. I was born with a huge slew of medical problems, including two large holes in my heart. Doctors spent the first two months of my life preparing my parents for my death and telling them that if I did live, I would more than likely be mentally challenged and never be able to sit up due to to muscle damage from surgery. Yet, I’m here 30 years later and just as healthy as the next person.

    Miracles do happen. You guys are definitely more than “due” for one, if that’s such a thing. You’re definitely in my thoughts and prayers. I’m so sorry that you guys are going through this. Huge hugs to you.

  4. Mandy Jackson says:

    I love you. We are praying for you.

  5. sending so much love to you. And praying for a miracle for your precious boy <3.

  6. Whitney Lett says:

    Our family is begging God for a miracle with you.

  7. I’m praying. I hardly ever pray but holy crap, I’m praying hard for your son right now

  8. Done, done, done. I have been praying for you, Sam, Bella and the Doctors who are taking care of Kaden. Now you have my specific prayers for a miracle. xoxoxo

  9. Elizabeth Flesher says:

    Much love and many prayers for your little boy and the rest of your family. I just found your blog last night and reading through your grief last year has hit home, and helped me all at the same time. We are saying goodbye to our 8 year old son after a 3 year battle with cancer. 43 days ago we were told that it could literally be any day now. We treasure every moment with him and know our loss will be great. I just want to say that all of us mamas are in this together and I will be praying that your little sweet baby stays in your arms down here on earth. <3

  10. Jessica Pardee says:

    You all are in my prayers *hugs*

  11. I stopped and prayed before I even finished reading.

  12. My heart is with your heart tonight & I am lifting you and Kaden up in my prayers tonight.Our God is a mighty God. I pray for healing and strength.God bless you both.No mama should have to endure what you are going through.

  13. Will be praying every night for that miracle. God will show you and your family his infinite and powerful love.

  14. Yes, yes, yes. Just yes. I will pray. I love you and Kaden and Sam and Bella and Julian and Preston. I know it’s crazy but I do, and I am begging and pleading with our Almighty God to rescue the ones that I love, that he loves. Amen and amen. Here for whatever you need, friend.

  15. Kim Smith Graham says:

    Sending love and prayers for you all and the medical staff. ♥

  16. Tamara Hansen Reese says:

    on my knees for you tonight. Your heart is being lifted by so many Mamas who have cried for you and for your family. <3

  17. I am joining the many voices in prayers for your son and your family.

  18. Daphne White says:

    with you in prayer

  19. I have no words, I can’t imagine your pain or your heartache, or how hard you are fighting alongside your precious new son. I am praying for your family, for your son and for you, that you find the strength and the courage to continue to advocate for your son, to watch on over him while he finds his health. All the best x

  20. said my prayer and will say it again. Please let kayden go home with his mom and daddy a healthy happy little boy with a full life ahead of him

  21. Storming heaven’s gates with you

  22. Anne Reedy says:

    Lifting your family in prayer tonight. Will be praying all night for your beautiful baby boy.

  23. Sending prayers and strength to you!

  24. Praying for you!! I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re
    going through. God is a big God who has your little guy in
    His hands. Praying for a miracle along with you!

  25. praying hard to a very big God in your honor tonight.

  26. Praying so hard for you!!!!!!! So many babies I know, (including my own) have come out of heart failure. Kaden and God know what’s happening and they are fighting so hard, they need you too. Fight Mama and anger is natural, it helps you to fight for them. I have a poster that says “I believe in miracles, ask me about mine”. I want you to get there so bad. God is showing you that sometimes miracles do happen and Kaden will be one of them!!!!!!!!!

  27. Stefanie Miller says:

    Keeping your family lifted in prayer and praying for full healing in sweet Kaden's heart! <3

  28. praying for a miracle, whether it be that the heart heals or that the perfect new tiny heart is found for Kaden. Sending you prayers for endurance and strength and sending doctor prayers for wisdom and discernment, and sending Kaden prayers for strength and healing. Love you.

  29. Praying for you, sweet mama.

  30. Just saw this shared on Facebook. Letting you know I am adding my voice to the prayer chorus.

  31. Miracles do happen. I believe. Praying for one now.

  32. Standing in the gap for you

  33. Praying so hard for you guys.

  34. Praying so much for you and your family…just know that He will sustain you, guide you, love you, hold you , and protect you through this entire ordeal. Sending big mama hugs.

  35. Sherri Kuhn says:

    Sending prayers and hugs for good wishes to Diana and her family. They have been through so very much.

  36. Christy Soloveichik says:

    Praying right now!

  37. Praying along with all those in the She Reads Truth Community.

  38. Praying!

  39. Morgan Shanahan says:

    Diana I want you to know I don't pray. My relationship with G-d is full of awkward silences and I'm more likely to wish on eyelashes then talk to G-d.

  40. Praying big prayers for Kaden and for you, Mama.

  41. Oh my, I hit enter waaaaay too soon. What I meant was this:

    Diana I want you to know I don’t pray. My relationship with G-d is full of awkward silences and I’m more likely to wish on eyelashes then talk to G-d. But I need for you to have this miracle, I do believe in miracles, I just have never known how to ask for them, but I think what you’ve said here is stunning. We need to be loud enough and after I publish this comment I will be dropping to my knees and praying with all my heart and soul for Kaden’s heart to heal itself. I love you.

    xo

  42. Praying for a miracle!

  43. Praying for Gods healing hands to touch little Kaden! You all are in our thoughts and prayers!

  44. Mindy Lafevers-Hodge says:

    Our Pastor told a story last night of receiving a call from a Dad w/ a Special Needs child. Dad and child had endured way too much, and Dad's faith was shaken. He told our Pastor "I'm done". I can't do this walk w/ Christ anymore. Our Pastor replied, no you're not, and here's why I know. You called me. People who are really done don't call the Pastor. And, you're not done either, Diana. You had the faith to post this and beg for prayer. That's your mustard seed. More than most of us reading this could have conjured up if we had walked in your shoes. Praying for your son tonight, just as I have prayed for you this entire pregnancy. We are more than conquerors, a royal priesthood, set apart. We claim favor over your son's life. That God will heal him and he will rise up as a mighty man of God who witnessed the miracle of healing even from his first days of life.

  45. Oh Diana,
    I am hoping that you get better news tomorrow. I’m sure you are hearing so many stories of babies that beat this. My niece had heart surgery at 10 days old and is a happy, healthy 4 year old now. Your Kaden is in my prayers and thoughts.

  46. Diana,

    My heart is breaking for you guys right now. I’m praying for Kaden and you and Sam.

  47. Rhonda Corker says:

    Prayers for your family.

  48. Kaloni Erickson says:

    I am so moved. Praying that your faith will be strengthened no matter what. Praying fervently that your precious baby will be restored. I have been reading your blog for some time now and my heart broke along with so many others when you lost your precious boys. I long for your family to be able to be whole and together at home. Much love and prayers being sent your way from my little home tonight. Here's hoping all our small, weak prayers and love can be felt wherever you are.

  49. Jennifer Carson Klubnik says:

    I am hoping and praying for sweet Kaden and sending strength and hugs to you, your husband and daughter, too.

  50. Jenny Feldon says:

    All my prayers to you and your family, Diana. Sending love.

  51. My heart is broken for you and your new baby son. When you can’t pray in strength then we will. Praying in boldness for health and healing. Praying for a God size miracle to fill his heart.

  52. Praying hard for you and your precious babe. My son had heart surgery in May which was very minor in comparison but I have such a burden for families who face these scary situations now that I have walked it. My heart is breaking for you. Know that God wants to heal Kaden. Trusting with you for a big miracle xxxx

  53. My Prayers for Kaden, You & Family. I pray the doctors are guided to do all the right things for Kaden. A miracle is Needed and I know god is a God who can do all things. {{HUGS}} to you and your family.
    <3

  54. Praying fervently for this miracle.

  55. Jena Marie DiPinto says:

    Amen, amen, praying for a miracle for Kaden. Whenever I pray for a sick child, I pray not just for their recovery, but that they live to be a happy healthy adult, a parent themselves, a grandparent themselves someday – it may sound silly when thinking of a newborn baby, but it's my way of making sure that my request is very clear to God – not for healing for now, for a few weeks, for a few years, but a complete and total healing leading to a wonderful long life.
    Holy Mary, Mother of us all, watch over and pray with us for Kaden tonight.

  56. Jena Marie DiPinto says:

    Amen, amen, praying for a miracle for Kaden. Whenever I pray for a sick child, I pray not just for their recovery, but that they live to be a happy healthy adult, a parent themselves, a grandparent themselves someday – it may sound silly when thinking of a newborn baby, but it's my way of making sure that my request is very clear to God – not for healing for now, for a few weeks, for a few years, but a complete and total healing leading to a wonderful long life.
    Holy Mary, Mother of us all, watch over and pray with us for Kaden tonight.

  57. Jena Marie DiPinto says:

    Amen, amen, praying for a miracle for Kaden. Whenever I pray for a sick child, I pray not just for their recovery, but that they live to be a happy healthy adult, a parent themselves, a grandparent themselves someday – it may sound silly when thinking of a newborn baby, but it's my way of making sure that my request is very clear to God – not for healing for now, for a few weeks, for a few years, but a complete and total healing leading to a wonderful long life.
    Holy Mary, Mother of us all, watch over and pray with us for Kaden tonight.

  58. Juanita Dueck says:

    Our family's faith-journey has been different than yours the last couple years. I can't imagine what you're dealing with. I do know this: that moment when you're ready to give up, give in, walk away….that's the moment God shows up. As horrible as all of this is….HE WILL REDEEM it. I don't know how. I don't know what it will look like….I just know He will. Because I've seen it happen over and over again. And ya….I just want to scream at Him and say " ENOUGH!" Like really! Enough! and HE is….Enough. Praying. Desperately praying for you all…..

  59. My heart is breaking that you are going through this. I was praying your delivery would be perfect and you’d be walking home with your sweet boy. I have faith that will still happen, and I am praying for you and your family.

  60. Praying without ceasing. Praying for complete healing. Praying for a miracle.

  61. I also experienced the loss of a baby (our firstborn) and can only imagine the roller coaster of emotions that you have so far experienced. I don’t know you personally but know that i am praying for you and your little fighter. Believe that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD.

    Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans i have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future”

  62. Reese McMillan says:

    Praying for you from the bottom of my heart

  63. Jennifer Macias says:

    Many many prayers to you and your sweet boy.

  64. Diana, my sister was a twin. My two sisters, Tina and Theresa were born two months premature in 1989. Unfortunately my sister, Theresa only survived a few moments before being lovingly called back home to heaven. My surviving sister, Tina required open heart surgery and experimental eye surgery in orer to save her life and save her from blindness. After all of that trauma she survived and went on to go to school where her teachers said she wouldn’t amount to much and would have a “normal for her” kind of life. She is now 24 and is a thriving, independent, and gifted individual who has blown every glass ceiling and barrier anyone has put in front of her away. I am fervently praying for little Kayden to keep fighting this’d is incredible fight and for God and those doctors to heal his heart. My most sincere prayers are for Kayden, You, Sam, and Bella this night and every night hereafter. God bless you, Diana, and we are all surrounding your family and your beautiful son with all of our love and healing energy.

    O: )

  65. Lisa Lemich Petrarca says:

    I'm praying for complete and total healing for Kaden. I'm also praying for the Lord's peace and comfort, which surpasses all understanding over all of you tonight.

  66. Our God is awesome. I have faith that he can heal Kaden’s sick heart. Loads of prayers and intercessory prayers…. Wel love you all.

  67. God will be with Kaiden and with you for sure, He is always there for us .

  68. Mary Lindsey says:

    Praying like crazy. Right now- at 3am.

  69. Angie Hesselden Robillard says:

    I'm praying very hard for Kaden to be healed. I'm also praying for your whole family to be carried in Gods arms through all of this. My heart is breaking for you. Your family is in my heart and prayers!!!

  70. Hi Diana, my son was born with Hypoplastic Right Heart Syndrome, Tricuspid Atresia, Atrial Septal Defect, Ventricular Septal Defect, Single Ventricle, and Pulmonary Stenosis. He’s had 3 major open heart surgeries and is now 10yrs old and doing well. I wanted you to know you are not alone and that Children’s Hospital in Houston is ranked 3rd in the United States for Pediatric Heart Surgery so I would consult with them before making any decisions. There are also some great Facebook groups if you want feedback from other cardiac parents, just search for Children with Congenital Heart Defects. Here are the hospital rankings so you can look at the hospitals. When a child is born in Louisiana with a need for surgery, they are usually sent to Boston but Houston is ranked up there with the best as well. Praying for you and your family.
    http://health.usnews.com/best-hospitals/pediatric-rankings/cardiology-and-heart-surgery

  71. Also search for Heart Mamas, another great group. There are also defect-specific groups as well.

  72. Most definitely praying for Kaden. Thank you for allowing us to help share your burden.

  73. Praying with you and for you – God watch over little Kaden!!

  74. I will just put it straight out here ..
    Dear Lord … You and I have a complicated relationship and I could never have even remotely close to the faith that Fiana has ..I am so in awe of her strength and her dedication to you . As I sit her with. My sleeping daughter on my lap I beg you to heal her precious son … Please please let her family find peace from the heart he that continues to plague them .with you all things are possible amen

    • (Apologies for all the errors I am typing on my phone but didn’t want toward a single second before getting my prayer in)

  75. Brenda Tolson says:

    I am praying for Kaden, Sam, Bella and you Diana. God is hearing our prayers and can do mighty miracles. I am Praying you get a miracle today that results in healing and health for Kaden.

  76. Marisa Toomey says:

    Praying!

  77. Sharon Carroll says:

    I will be praying for all of you. My son was born with 3 heart defects and I know how you are feeling and what you going through. Feel free to email me or FB me if you want to chat.

  78. Praying so hard… for all of those things and more. Sending love and prayers and thoughts of peace your way.

  79. My husband had open heart surgery to repair one ventricle when he was an infant in 1985 and once healed he lived a perfectly healthy and happy life. Thirty years of innovation in the field ensures there’s no reason why he can’t recover, I’m going to focus my prayers on you receiving a healthy heart donation.

  80. our God is a God of miracles- so I will pray & pray & pray without ceasing.
    your faith & strength is so incredible humbling <3

  81. Teresa Cavanaugh says:

    I'm praying too.

  82. I found you thru Kate Sluiter and have been following you since the twins passed. I am praying dilligently for you, Sam and Bella. We serve a mighty God who is capable of many many things, including miracles. Thank you for the updates, we will continue to pray. xoxoxo

  83. Praying so many prayers for a miracle. I mentioned when I commented on your instagram that I was a patient at Children’s and had open heart surgery there for a congenital heart defect. The details of my case were this: I had a congenital aortic stenosis, so the opening of my aorta to pump blood to the rest of my body was barely opening. This isn’t as huge of issue in today’s medical world, but in 1984 it was a grave situation that required a massive heart surgery. They told my parents there was only a 25% chance of me surviving the operation, and if they didn’t operate I would be lucky to make it to 2 years old. They cracked my chest at 11 months old and slit open the valve (which wasn’t only fused mostly shut, but is also genetically deformed to only have 2 flaps instead of 3) to allow more blood to flow through. Then they said this was very temporary and the valve would need to be replaced by age 5. I’ll be 29 in October with that exact same repaired valve.

    This is in NO WAY comparable to your situation, BUT, I will tell you that the cardio-thoracic surgeon who performed the operation back in 1985 mailed me a handwritten card on my 18th birthday that talked about what a miracle it is that I haven’t had to have that valve replaced w/ a prosthetic yet. He finished with, “God is good.” God IS good. I have lived 29 years, been a competitive cheerleader, endured childbirth, run a mile, hiked mountains, etc.- ALL with the valve He gave me at birth. A defective valve that leaks excessively now, but MY valve. This is my miracle.

    I tell you my story not to compare, and certainly not to diminish the terrifying ordeal you are experiencing, but to hopefully be a story of hope. I know Kaden’s poor heart is worse off than mine ever was, but I do believe God can perform miracles and I do believe He is faithful. I am praying so hard for a miracle for Kaden. Praying that God reaches right in and heals his heart before it ever needs to be touched by a scalpel. And if not that, then I’m praying that God PROVIDES. If, God forbid, it did come to a transplant, i am praying that God provides the perfect heart for your son, and that God’s hands are guiding the surgeon’s hands, and God’s wisdom is leading the surgeon’s thoughts. I believe God can do big things. I believe He can perform miracles and I believe He provides. I am praying for both for Kaden and your family.

    It is okay that your faith is shaken and your angry. I think in times when we cannot believe, we have an army of believers who step in to believe FOR us and pray for us and be our warriors when we cannot go on. I am believing with you and for you. I am praying for a miracle.

  84. Heavenly Father, you are the great healer, able to do great miracles. Today I ask you to be with little Kaden and heal his heart. Lord, please also give your peace and comfort to Diana and Sam.

  85. Praying ❤ Started a prayer chain as well as sharing this on my personal wall and a few of my special group walls… Going to have as many people praying for Kaden's Miracle as we can ❤

  86. Thinking about you and knowing there are miracles to be had. So many hugs coming your way.

  87. Have faith. There is hope! I was born with two deformed heart valves and I am a 21- year survivor of congenital heart disease. My love and prayers go out to you and your family. I am also a CHD advocate in the South Florida area and can point you in the right direction for support groups if so needed. Please, feel free to friend me on Facebook.

  88. I’ll be praying for a miracle for you. I don’t have many other words right now other than I am thinking of you and your family right now.

  89. Marlie Spatz says:

    I’m praying specifically for your miracle, and for strength, peace, and rest for you and your family during this difficult time!

  90. Diana – I am carrying you, Sam, Bella and Kaden in my own heart right now. I send you all the strength and love I have and want you to know how much that is – beyond words. My heart swells over at the amount of love flowing through this virtual world for you and your sweet baby. Praying with you.

  91. Sending love to your family and little Kaden and thinking of you all!

  92. Mitch Mitchell Johnson says:

    Praying this morning for little Kaden and for your family! My heart is heavy today and you all will be on my mind and in my prayers.

  93. I read this this morning & immediately thought of you.

    “God is God; he sees & hears
    All our troubles, all our tears.
    Soul, forget not, ‘mid thy pains,
    God o’er all forever reigns.

    For this life’s long night of sadness
    He will give us peace and gladness.
    Soul, remember, in thy pains,
    God o’er all forever reigns.”

    Praying for a peace that surpasses all understanding & that His presence floods your soul.

  94. Monica Nuckolls Bumgarner says:

    I am praying…

  95. Praying for your miracle!

  96. Sending prayers for your little Kaden and your entire family. Miracles can happen – keep faith and know so many people are holding you up.

  97. Hi my name is Amanda Gee. I have have had 5 open heart surgeries and I am waiting for the date of my 6th one. I was told many of time that I wasn't going to live and it will take a miracle. I am still here and almost 35 years old. I am sending so many hugs and prayers for you and your
    family.

  98. with tears on my cheeks, and an ache in my heart, my prayers are going up for Kaden, and your entire family, as well as Kaden’s cardiology team, nurses, techs, staff… so many prayers, and so much love. *HUGS*

  99. I am praying.

    I have also forwarded your post to my best friend who is an adult who was born with a bad ticker. She’s the one who just commented (Amanda Gee). She’s a fighter, as I imagine your little one is too.

    Covering you in love and prayers.

  100. Lord, I thank you today for another day to honor and glorify you. Thank you for another day that Kaden is still here with us. I pray that you would be glorified and magnified through this situation. You are a big God and you are still in control. I pray that you are with Sam and Diana that you could show them that you are still there and that you haven’t dropped them at all. You are changing their hearts and building their faith right now. Each day we are allowed to be here on earth is a gift from you and not one day should be take for granted not one day is owed to us. Let us honor you each day we are still here. You have told us that when we seek we will find, when we knock the door will be opened, and when we ask we will be answered. Lord I am asking that you heal Kaden’s heart and bodly knocking on that door for his health to be fully restored in order to magnify your name. One thing we do know is that Kaden is in your hands and we surrender the situation to you. By your stripes we are healed and I am thanking you in advance for Kaden’s healing because it has already been done on that cross so long ago we just have to claim it and I am claiming it God. Thank you for your love. We know each day we are growing in you and that you haven’t abandoned this situation. You are closer than ever before! This situation is not only affecting Sam and Diana but so many strangers as well. We are all being changed through this and we thank you for that. Help us to take one day at a time And to not rush your timing. We thank you again and it’s in your sons name, Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen!

  101. Christine Rafferty Papasian says:

    Praying for you and have asked my friends, fellow prayer warrior mommas, to join me in prayer as well. Praying hard for you and your family. Praying you feel God's love through all this.

  102. Praying and sharing.
    Jesus, ALL things are possible when our hope is in You. We are hoping and praying for a miracle that when people witness it, they have no option but to believe that it was You who did this amazing work in this sweet baby’s heart.

  103. Sending out prayers and Tweets for more prayers! #PrayersforKaden

    We stand in the gap during this moment for you as your faith shakes. We will not let you go and we will not let you fall. God is mighty and you have a great testimony!

    oxoxox

  104. continuing to storm the gates of Heaven for ya’ll
    ~so much love coming your way~
    xoxo

  105. Crystal Edinger DiLuzio says:

    Wishing there was something else to say other than we are praying for your family !!

  106. Melissa Schoendorf Ribaudo says:

    Praying for all of you!

  107. Praying for all the hearts of your precious family.

  108. Diana, y’all have been heavy on my heart all weekend. I am praying daily for a miracle for Baby Kaden. I’m also praying for peace for y’all & for the Lord to give y’all faith. I don’t know what else to say other than I’m praying constantly.

  109. I'm praying as I have from when you where pregnant with the twins. you are strong and you can do this.

  110. You and your little boy have been on my mind so much in these past few days. Sending my prayers to our big God for a miracle that he will heal your precious Kayden and his little heart.

  111. Sending up prayers at work right now. My heart hurts for you, but I know God can do what HE says HE can do.

  112. Praying for a miracle only our heavenly father can provide.

  113. thank you for sharing the story of your pain and the tremendous courage that has carried you through. sending prayers for many miracles

  114. Praying for Kaden, you, Sam, Bella, and the rest of your family. I pray that your faith will be renewed and that God will give y’all the strength and peace that passes all understanding. There is no one like our God and nothing that He cannot do.

  115. Hoping and praying for you.

  116. Sending prayers to you, Sam, Bella, and Kaden right now – for strength and understanding in this difficult time.

  117. Maggie Pereira Smith says:

    Sending healing prayers!

  118. absolutely praying. You have suffered so much! Lord, protect this child Kaden. You alone know how to heal him. Direct the doctors, the nurses, everyone who touches this child to have wisdom and faith. Bless this family, reassure them that your are sovereign and loving and good. You created Kaden and you are trustworthy. Please provide what is needed to heal this baby. In Christ’s name, Amen.

  119. Joy Blackman Lewis says:

    My thoughts go out to you, your son, your family and friends.

  120. Praying for Kaden today and every day until that miracle arrives. I believe also that our God is big…no huge….and that He can and will provide a miracle for your little boy. May God wrap your family in His arms and provide total healing for Kaden.

  121. The Lord bless you and keep you;
    the Lord make his face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you;
    the Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace.

  122. Katie Stewart says:

    Praying for sweet Kaden. And for his family that they may be strong for him.

  123. No family should ever have to endure this. Absolutely praying for that little heart to get strong.

  124. Praying for you and your family Diana. I only know you through the blogosphere but I feel your pain and your fears and your hope and your faith. Sometimes faith isn't in what we think it is – sometimes it is in asking for help, asking for others to pray for us. When we are weak, HE is strong. I prayed for you just now, my husband and I stopped everything to pray and hope and dream of a miracle for your family. Don't give up hope. Never give up your faith. From one mama to another – you CAN do this. And prayer CAN work miracles if it is His will. We will continue to pray, not just for this miracle, but for you to feel His presence in your life, His strength, and His faith.

  125. My sweet friend. Sometimes life just breaks me with unfairness. I want to scream and rail at God for this; I want to get on my knees and beat the ground on your behalf.

    This is not fair.

    But I will pray with and for you. I am so sorry.

  126. Diana,

    I am new to your blog and your story. I am also a military wife. I wanted to let you know that I am praying really hard for your family.

  127. Praying for you too. Peace, courage, and the presence of Christ in the midst of your sorrow.

  128. Joan Potter Kramer says:

    What a sad story; sounds like she lost twins also. So much heartbreak, losing these little ones.

  129. Christin Bockman-Pedersen says:

    Praying for you and your son Kaden! Praying for your miracle!

  130. My heart aches for you when reading this. My first son was born unexpectedly with special needs that were “discovered” on his exit exam. My second son was born the same way despite having many ultrasounds indicating otherwise.

    I can feel your pain and I am so sorry that you and your family are going through this. I will keep you all in my prayers. Just keep your focus on your family and God will do the rest. Cast all your worries on him.

  131. Lipika Nath Frith says:

    Bella and Kaden's Mommy, you and your family are so strong! We've are sending you love.

  132. As a mother who lost her 10-year-old son in an auto accident, I can totally relate to your feelings of your faith being rocked to it’s core, but I’m here to say, God Is real, He is still in the miracle business and He can save your baby, IF that is His will. He WILL heal him one way or another, either by healing His heart and allowing him to live here on this earth or by taking your precious boy home with Him. You must be prepared for either. I know that is hard to hear, but God is God and He knows better than we what is best for your baby. I truly Hope you find peace and comfort no matter what the outcome is. And that you realize God is good all the time and you can praise Him even in your darkest moments, simply because He is who He is. Blessings…xo

  133. Heather 'n Mark Williams says:

    Kaden is in our hearts and in our prayers. God is good.

  134. Amy Hagan Valentine says:

    Praying hard for you and your baby!

  135. You know we are praying like CRAZY for you and Kaden.

  136. Praying so hard for you and for Kaden.

  137. Leanndra Johnson Foster says:

    Praying for Kaden right now and for the miracle of healing his heart. Dear God, please wrap you arms around Kaden and Diana and Sam right now. Let them know you're with them and give them strength to endure. Please heal Kaden's heart for your glory. What a testimony this little man will have one day!

  138. Praying for kaden and your family.

  139. I am in tears right now and will be continuously praying for Kaden and your whole family. I have been there with my Baby Boy hanging on the verge of life and death, on life support for several weeks. I pray that He will give you the same super-human strength he gave me to get through this, and that He will comfort you and your family.

  140. Praying your specific prayer and know that God has heard you (and all of us). He is in this situation. Blessings.

  141. Strangers are praying. Hold on and keep strong. I have personally witnessed the miracles that happen at Children's with heart babies. Dr. Forbess (and God) worked a miracle in the life of a precious family member and another sweet baby I've followed.

  142. Prayers sent – for love, strength, peace and miracles.

  143. Siobhan McArdle says:

    I was willing to give my life for my son… I bargained, I prayed , I ranted, I sang , I wept….. my heart was shattered…. his death made no sense… I am hoping for strength & peace for you & your family and a wonderful outcome for Kaden.
    best wishes and virtual hugs.

  144. Praying for you and your family.

  145. Diana, I don’t know you, but so many friends have urged us to pray for you, Kaden and your family that I had to read your story. Count on my prayers. I do believe in miracles and pray you will get one for your son.

  146. Kathy Lindemann-Hijar says:

    Praying!!!

  147. Joanna Javor says:

    <3

  148. Crying with you. And praying for a miracle. We serve a big God.

  149. Christy Franc Brown says:

    Continued prayers for his healing and your strength. <3

  150. Belisa S Kinnard says:

    I pray for you as parents to find the strength to boldly go to god and pray to him together so that he may hear YOUR pleas and give you YOUR miracle. As hard as it may seem you must remember this is your trial and you must go to him in your weakest moment knowing that he and only he can answer your prayers. Don't let pride, sadness, fear or anger keep u from your blessing. Praying for your son as well!!!

  151. Lisa Kay Espinosa says:

    Oh Diana. Found your blog from a request for prayer from Jenny on the Spot (Jenny Ingram). I am praying for a miracle. I am praying for God to come close to your heart like never before. This is a heart ache unimaginable. I am a mom who has (and continues to) walk with my 3 boys who have had heart issues and my husband had open heart surgery to correct a life threatening issue and chronic medical challenges. SAHM. homeschool mom. You can count on my prayers for a miracle. healing. for faith to take each and every step. I love the beth moore quote. Here was the one that sustained me: "God is too good to be unkind. He is too wise to be confused. If I cannot trace His hand, I can always trust His heart." C. H. Spurgeon

  152. Sending you love & prayers… love & prayers until you take your son home from the hospital healed.

  153. Oh, Diana… I am just heartbroken that you are going through this with Kaden. What a gift that the doctors caught this as you were leaving the hospital. I know that our Father cares for sweet Kaden and for your breaking heart. I’m praying and trusting that He will heal Kaden and be glorified in this. May many see His great love and power through Kaden’s heart, now and for Kaden’s whole life. Praying peace and strength for you and your family as you wait on the Lord… and that you would find little moments of joy and wonder with your sweet baby boy.

  154. Praying for you all. My heart is breaking for you.

  155. Oh my fellow mama…sending prayers of strength and courage. I’m so sorry you and your family are going through this. Your tears are my tears, my heart is full for you.

  156. Praying for a miracle!

  157. Oh precious Sweet Mama! I’m praying for miracles for Kaden! And for you and your family!

  158. Jessica Beecher says:

    Pray, hope and be humble. My first son was born with a 1 in a million defect to his small intestine where on a scale of 1to 5 being fatal he was a 4. At this time no such thing as an intestinal transplant. Yet 9 yrs later here he is. Challenging us more today then he ever did then. I’m thankful and still struggle everyday with what happened. But one therapist said to me which resonates always “it didn’t happen to you. It happened to him. It’s his body, his life.” Remember that and pray for your little man to fight, be strong and stubborn. I say all this to remind you this is just a small moment in yours and his life. I know how you are feeling right now (and from what I read many moms do) we are sending you our love and our strength!!! I don’t know you but my heart is reaching out to you to be strong and live in every moment with Kaden right now. I wish I was there to give you a huge hug but I’m sending you one from Washington as best I can.

  159. My heart broke as I read your stories and I can't even imagine what you have been through. I will be praying daily for Kaden and for all of you as a family.. God is good and I am praying He will heal sweet baby Kaden. Love and Blessings from PA!

  160. Kayla Haakenson-Smith says:

    Lifting you and your family up in our prayers! Will be saying an extra special prayer each night for your little guy!

  161. How Heart Breaking!! Praying… and shared asking others to pray too

  162. Our God is a strong and mighty God. When I was doing my usual browsing on IG the other night I saw the prayers for Kaden picture through someone’s feed. My heart immediately sank and I followed prompts to see what was going on. I was shocked. Disbelief and horror over took me. I immediately said to my husband, “Why would God allow this to happen. Why? Why? Why? Not this baby, not them. Not after all you have endured!” I have been praying for you continuously. I know we have never met and I know we were playing email tag for a bit with homeschool stuff and never had the opportunity to connect, but I am begging and pleading with God on your behalf that he performs a miracle and I do believe despite my faith being shattered at times that he will deliver as only HE can. God Bless you Mama, it’s okay to be question right now. We are all here as the Angel Army of One being strong and faithful for you. HUGS

  163. I’m praying for you, Momma. God is with you every step of the way even though it doesn’t feel like it, He is. Because God is.

  164. Diana,
    I am so angry at what you have had to endure. I wanted to just scream when I read your most recent post. I thought ‘seriously’ she has to endure this too, it just is NOT FAIR! I wish there was something that I could do for you, as you have done so much for me. We lost our precious son Sawyer last October, at 19 weeks and 4 days, and I was shaken to the core. Your blog has helped me realize that it is OK to grieve for our loss. It is something that we will never get over, but you have helped us to get through it. Please know that there are so many out there who don’t even know you but love you and are praying for your life and family. May Jesus fill your heart with the strength you need.

  165. Diana, my heart is hurting for you and brings back a lot of emotions for me. Your story sounds very similar to ours. Our son had heart failure a few days after he was born (in January). The doctors gave him a 50% chance of survival and talked heart transplant……BUT he is a living miracle. The heart healed on its own and he is doing great now. You have to believe in Kaden’s strength, answered prayers and modern medicine. Miracles do happen! Make sure you take care of yourself (you just gave birth)……I know it is the last thing on your mind, but make sure you eat, drink and rest. You need the strength and you need to stay healthy, so you can go see Kaden!!!!!!!

  166. I am praying.

  167. Lord, please place your healing hands on precious Kayden Lift the hearts and spirits of his loved ones so that they can move forward in the steps you have laid for them to take.

  168. Julie Ketter says:

    Praying for you and your family.

  169. My mom’s whole church and my in-laws’ church are praying for all of you, by name. Us, too, of course. SO MUCH LOVE.

  170. My heart and thoughts are with you all. Miracles are not usually my forte, but I’ll call in whatever favours I have. xoxo

  171. I have you all in my thoughts. ((((())))

  172. Karen Marroquin Scobee says:

    Praying for healing that only His hands can provide.

  173. Teresa Cavanaugh says:

    <3

  174. Love and prayers…… xo

  175. I will pray for you all right now!

  176. I came across your website through instagram. God knows how to time yhings.i feel like I have known you my whole life. I am broken.
    Dear heavenly father, please grant that much needed miracle to K a den. You know how much his pare b ts sister family and friends are waiting for this. Thank you for this miracle in Jesus’ name. Amen.

  177. Praying for you and Baby Kaden!! I have no idea the pain and battle you are in but we as the Body of Christ stand with you in agreement for a miracle!! Jesus said you only need faith as much as a mustard seed and He’ll make up the rest(Matthew 17:20) and He helped the father that came with his son and his unbeliefe(Mark 9:14-27). I believe God has wonderful plans for you and Kaden :). (Jeremiah 29:11)
    Keep looking unto Jesus the Author and Completion of your faith(Hebrews 12:2-3). He is with you and we are too!

  178. Sending so many good vibes and well wishes to you and your little one!

  179. I just cannot even believe you are going through this :(

    Many many thoughts and prayers for you and your family. xoxo

  180. Diana, I have been following you since you had the twins and I am praying with every.single.ounce. of strength I have in me for you, Sam, Bella, and of course, Kaden. Love and prayers from Michigan.

  181. Baby girl I cant even imagine, but praying hard in Tennessee & sharing. Dont lose the faith. He is an AWESOME GOD.

  182. I’m praying! I’ve been reading your blog since a little before you got pregnant and caught up on your story soon after I started reading. I am always amazed at your transparency and it’s been a joy to see your faith get you through such tragedy. I’ve rejoiced over the healing that God has provided and now am praying that God strengthens you and your husband and loved ones and gives you peace. But I am also praying for complete healing for your precious baby. God doesn’t always answer with a “yes” but I believe he wants us to be intentional and specific in our prayers. You are an amazing and strong woman and are an inspiration.

  183. Prayers sent up for your precious little Kaden to be healed. And for strength for you and your family. God is good and I also believe in the words spoken by Beth Moore. Never doubt that God is there right next to you! He never will leave your side.

  184. Praying so hard for you and your little one tonight. May God make Himself known to you through intimate details.

  185. My husband and I will be praying for you and your family tonight. Please stay strong and have faith that our communal thoughts, prayers, and pleas will help bring a miracle to your little boy. Big, giant hugs.

  186. Patricia OSullivan says:

    Praying for Kaden and the entire family. He is so beautiful.

  187. I will keep you and Kaden in my prayers.

  188. Praying for Kaden and for all the doctors, nurses and support staff that are looking after him. Praying for his heart to be a strong stubborn heart. Praying for you and Sam to know how many people love you. Praying that Bella doesn’t understand what is really going on but instead just thinks her brother is taking his sweet ass time coming home.

  189. Heidi Oran says:

    Praying for your family and your sweet baby Diana.

  190. Praying for you and sweet Kaden. Miracles do happen and I pray he receives a miracle.

  191. Megan Coleman says:

    I admire your faith and the courage it takes/took to be this vulnerable not only in front of all of us, but also before God. he does not take that lightly. I will be praying for full healing for kaden's heart. and a sense of strength and peace in your and sam's hearts as you wait. this verse keeps coming to mind as I type this. Isaiah 46:4 the LORD says "I have made you, I will carry you, I will sustain you, and I will rescue you." don't you for one minute let the enemy whisper lies to you that try to disprove this. God's heart is breaking for your family just as mine is. May you feel our prayers as we lift them for you over the days to come. I have never and probably will never meet you, but in the instance I do- I have a giant hug for you!

  192. I am praying for you and your precious family. May you be granted peace through this time of trial and may God heal Kaden to be a STRONG, courageous boy.

  193. Praying diligently for you! Praying that The Lord’s presence, His Goodness even in the midst of this broken, sinful world, will be closely felt! Praying that His strength will walk you, your family, and your friends, through this and draw all of you nearer to Him as you do! Praying that the Lord will heal your sweet little one!

  194. Lauren Johnson says:

    Our family has been through this very recently. You don't need to know our details but our family was rocked to the core with infant heart disease, and have been scared Sh*tless, begged, pleaded, prayed, turned upside down with the scariness of it all. The only thing that made sense to me when I was going through it, was when someone told me to "Just Breathe, and do the best you can in the moment." I am sorry you also have to go through such a difficult time that just does not make sense. I am praying for you tonight, that your little one's heart gets stronger.

  195. Philip Wells says:

    hello Heidi Oran how is the script going

  196. Sarah Kooymans says:

    Praying and sharing.

  197. Started following your story after my sister in law lost her triplet boys at 20 weeks. You are so brave to share your story and I hope that all of this prayer power brings you the miracle you need! My prayers are with you, your family, your sweet boy.

  198. Darlene Day says:

    My heart aches for your family, because I understand the effect of Kaden’s heart problems on the hearts of those who love him. Almost 20 years ago I stood where you are now. Our 18-year-old daughter,Laura, was critically ill and not expected to survive. I had begged and begged God to heal her and even tried to bargain with Him to take me instead and make her healthy again. I will never forget the prayer prayed by a minister in my husband’s family. He told God we were bold enough to ask for the miracle we needed in Laura’s life. Many health problems were with her for a long time, but on May 25, 2012, she gave birth to our only grandchild. I’m sharing this with you because I have already begun praying boldly for God to send Kaden the miracle of healing. I tell everyone that if they don’t believe in miracles I can introduce them to one. At times when you feel you just can’t ask God again for what you need, ask a friend to talk to Him on your behalf. No one knows better than He what is in your heart.

  199. Morgann Crook says:

    Sending strong and happy vibes your way. So sorry you have to go through this!

  200. Praying from New Zealand

  201. sitting here sobbing. I am so sorry. I will pray too.

  202. Krista Moore says:

    Thinking of your family!

  203. I just sent up a prayer. Please please let your little boy be OK. Please.

  204. >3

  205. Praying praying praying x 100.

  206. Praying for you dear.

  207. Paola Rodriguez says:

    I do not even know you or your family , but somehow your story came to ears, and just rock my world. I believe you are stronger than you think you are, I also believe that as you story literally shocked me and put me on my knees to pray for you guys will impact so many people. I can't tell why this is happening but I can assure you that God is with you, that God is big enough to heal your son, that God does not bring death but life in abundancy and that somehow even if you and I can't see how, He will be glorified.
    Just like Isaiah 53:5 says:"But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed." I Believe Kaden’s heart is HEALED now, not future but Now.
    You are an amaizing, encouraing, brave woman of God. and I'm so thankful that I Could be your sister through Jesus and I today commit to pray for you and you family.
    Blessings and hugs from Colombia.

  208. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time
    Tracy Brennan's mom

  209. Diana,

    I just found your blog a few days ago while searching for something or someone that is going thru what my husband and i are going thru. I won’t go into my struggles with pregnancy, I just want to tell you that I will be praying for you. My grandmother was born with a hole in her heart and was not supposed to live. She is now 92 years old and still living a healthy happy life. I know miracles can happen and I sincerely hope one happens for you and your family.

    Kim

  210. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

  211. Praying!

  212. This post struck me and shocked me to my core. I hope my prayers (all of our prayers) find you and your family and give Kaden the stregnth and fight he needs.

  213. Lauren Scott says:

    Praying hard and fast for your family. You are one of the strongest and most inspirational people with such a big heart.

  214. Praying for you son, your tender, battered, & bruised mama’s heart, and for your family. And for that desired miracle rather than more grief.
    Sending you love.

  215. Praying and thinking of you and your family!

  216. Diana,

    I only “know” you through your blog, which I have been following for a little over a year. Many of your posts have brought me to tears and this one is no exception. Nobody deserves to go through what you are experiencing, it’s absolutely heartbreaking. Know that so many people are praying for you and hoping for a miracle. I have been thinking about you on a regular basis since Kaden was born and wishing so badly that his precious little heart heals. I am sending you lots of love from Canada.

  217. Praying!

  218. Praying… Please let me know if I can being you anything to Children's or help you find a discounted hotel room. I'm in Dallas & know a lot of people in hotels.

  219. Joanne Beasley says:

    God our Father, I ask in Jesus’s Name, for a new heart for Kaden. And just as Jesus began giving out food before it existed, He was thanking You, Father, for what didn’t exist yet, the loaves and fishes to feed so many, I give You thanks for giving Kaden a new heart. And I rest in the knowledge that You birth babies to live and not die. I speak, I declare LIFE over Kaden, in the name of Jesus Christ. May we all continue to speak and declare Kaden will live and not die in the mighty name and will of Jesus Christ. Thank You God for the life You have planned for Kaden here on earth. He will love many into Your kingdom! He will be a friend of Yours.

  220. Prayers for your baby and entire family.

  221. Daniela Hoffmann says:

    I just prayed for you and Kaden.

  222. Amy Daniels Jones says:

    Diana- I've followed your blog for years and have never posted a comment but I wanted you to know that I am praying for Kaden that God will grant healing for him. Hang in there, so many are praying! Please continue to update! Prayers and love from Florida!

  223. Nothing that I can say will make this better for you, but, know that so many of us have been where you are and we send our good thought and prayers. God is with you and no matter what happens you have the people who love you most praying for you and your family.

  224. Liz Barone says:

    Sending each of you all of my love and hope.

  225. I’m praying for you and your little one.

  226. I don't know you. I just came across this when a friend of a friend shared it on Facebook. But I want to thank you – and bless you – for your honesty. I cannot even begin to imagine what you've gone through already, but I know a little bit of what it's like to have so little faith left you wonder if you have any faith left. But as Mindy pointed out, the very fact that you're asking means you do.

    We're all weak – that's why we have each other. So we can offer our faith up for you in your moment of need (and maybe at some point it will be your turn to offer up your faith for one of us). I am – and will be – lifting you all up in prayer.

  227. I quite like reading through an article that can make people think.
    Also, thank you for allowing me to comment!

  228. Hugzzzz

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