Finding Our Love Language with God
I can’t be the only one who looks at all those gorgeous photos of other women’s quiet time in the mornings with God and a devotional and thinks, “Why can’t I keep that a part of my life on a daily basis? Why am I not more committed/organized/disciplined?”
Then I wonder if I simply don’t love God enough to get up at 6am and worship in the sunrise. Because I admire the women who do this. I feel a tug on my soul as I crash into bed that I, once again, didn’t do a devotion. Didn’t journal it.
I did, however, watch The Good Wife while exercising. So I did do that.
Here’s what I’ve had placed on my heart lately, and maybe it’ll help some of you that struggle with these feelings:
My time with my Lord is spent through my day. I’m finding that my relationship with God is just that – a relationship. Just like with my husband or child or friends, it needs cultivating. It takes time and effort on my part.
I have a different love language to God than some other women. Mine is a questioning, praying in the moment kind. A sort of desperate kind. A clinging to Him kind because I am not in another stage in my life right now. A sing in the car kind. I don’t base my relationship with Sam or Bella off what other women do – so why am I doing that with God? Am I trying to turn myself into a different woman he’s proud of? “Wow Diana, 6am? Aaaaand let’s get your name in the middle seat for Heaven, right by Job…” I can’t surprise or impress God, because He made me. He understands that 6am is not my deal.
He’s ok with that for me.
Some of our love languages are journaling. Carving out sacred time to worship alone. Writing in between the kids or work. Alone at a coffee shop, rocking out in the car, snuggling up to our children to read their Bible and pray. Cooking in the kitchen while talking to Him. Praying with our husbands at night.
Did you see yourself in there?
All of the ways we choose to worship our God are lovely to Him. As long as our hearts long to spend time with Him and seek Him out, I don’t think God keeps a scoreboard of who did what on what day. My secret obsession with KLOVE in the car (I don’t even know who I am) doesn’t please Him more than the woman who is pondering her devotion while driving the kids to the dentist. Yes, spending time in His Word is important, but don’t beat yourself up if it’s not a daily thing.
God doesn’t want forced love – or he wouldn’t have made free choice (let’s avoid the theology here). He wants us to love Him in ways we enjoy, and if reading the Bible cover to cover makes you want to stick a fork in your eye – then don’t. Even if your friend does, and she loves it. That is HER love language.
Let’s find how we adore spending time with God and choose to do it more and with greater awareness. Find your Love Language to Him.