4 Years Ago

4 years ago today I sat down on a clunky desktop and typed out this post. I was tired. I was bored. I was stuck inside all day with a 2 month old.

I missed writing and had been sucked into blogs by Beth Anne and Ashley‘s way of writing their lives for an audience.

4 years.

How long did I struggle withΒ coming to termsΒ of writing on here?

This has been a much different story on here than I imagined 4 years ago. I never thought I’d have documented almost losing our first home, watching Sam rejoin the military, a move to El Paso, or deciding to homeschool.

I’ve chronicled Bella’s life and her milestones, announced twins, an adoption, and another baby. This blog holds three of the start to finish lives of my sons. I’ve cried and grieved and railed against God. I’ve fallen in love with my husband all over againΒ and again.

My blog has taken me all over the world. In 3 years I’ve been to New York twice, Delaware, San Diego, Nashville, Indianapolis, Dallas for conferences. I was sent on a Disney Cruise to Galveston TX, the Grand Caymans, Cozumel, and Costa Maya. Our homeschooling dreams were made a reality with a room just for Bella and I.

I’ve changed my name on here, stopped using different colored fonts (lololol), gotten my heart’s desire as a writer, and earn a livable income off my passion – something that I haven’t ever taken for granted in the nearly 2 years I’ve been doing this.

Lifelong friends – women who have stood by me, cried with me, been angry for me, and encouraged me – have come from here. Some who write me emails on a consistent basis just to let me know they are praying and holding my family in their thoughts.

This little space of the internet has brought some of my highest highs and lowest lows. Emails that ask if I want to go on a cruise send me into a whirlwind of excitement, but others have the power to make me want to quit. I’ve gained a much, much thicker skin than I ever thought I’d have at the start of this, when I watched some bloggers get raked over the coals for their thoughts.

It’s taken 4 years to do all of this. For those of you who have asked how to make money with your writing – give it time. Pour your heart into it. Love what you do. Write for others and ask for help. Remember that when you reach the goal in your mind, there is suddenly another one waiting around the corner. Define your own success so you aren’t constantly chasing the next thing.

There is always a next thing.Β 

I don’t know what this year holds on here. But I can tell you now, you’ll know along with us. I have hopes and dreams for my work still, maybe even a book.

That seems so out of reach – so I wait for God’s timing on a yes or no.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for commenting. Thank you for your support and love to us in a very hard two years. Thank you for never, ever letting me continue to feel like all I am is a woman who lost 3 sons. Thank you for being excited for me, for your tears and heartache, for the many ways you all have shown us and the world what it looks like to truly love your neighbor as yourself.

I’m honored to write with you reading. Thank you for making our life part of yours.


Comments

  1. Congratulations on four years!

    I don’t remember exactly how I found you but I know it was through Twitter and it was right before you moved to Texas…I’m almost positive I was still pregnant with Sophia so it’s definitely been a while. The second we started talking and I started reading here I was hooked. I’m so glad I had the opportunity to meet with you face to face at BlogHer.

    It’s been a honor to read your story as it has happened. I can’t wait to see what else you’ll share with us in the future.

  2. love reading!

  3. Bethany Pearl-Pinckard says:

    Diana, you are never just " a woman who lost three sons". You are Mom to a beautiful little girl, a wife to one of our nations' finest, and you just happen to have 3 beautiful little souls just waiting for you to get to heaven and get to know them! Thanks for writing and letting us share in your life – it's a blessing to all of us~

  4. Anneka Newman says:

    I get extremely excited when your new posts pop up in my email. I love reading your blog. I feel like I know you and am part of your family. You will never be just "the woman who lost three sons." I am happy right along with you and sad and crying when you are. Your faith in God has helped me question mine and pushed me to be more of a believer. Thank you for writing your blog and being 100% real with us. Its is nice to read.

  5. Beth Anne Ballance says:

    & I've been blessed to know you ever since.

  6. Your blog was one of the first blogs I started reading regularly, a few years ago. You truly have a gift for expressing feeling, events and everyday life, in such a beautiful way. I want to thank you for having this blog!!

  7. You are such an amazing woman!! Congrats on your four years of blogging. I’m so excited for your homeschooling journey! much love!

  8. Another beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your life. Your writing is a gift.

  9. 4 years! So awesome. I’m about a year in on my personal blog and you inspire me. Thanks for always being so real. You gave me hope though my mc and so much more.

  10. Congratulations on your blogiversary!! So glad to have found your blog and so thankful you keep writing. You are wonderful and bless so many people through all that you share. Thank you, too, for inspiring me to write. Thank you, thank you, thank you…

  11. Jessica Pardee says:

    Diana I am so glad I found your blog. You have helped me grow as a mother and as a woman of faith. Thamk you for being so open and sharing.

  12. I somehow stumbled across your blog in blogland~ glad I did! Just wanted to say that I appreciate your honesty about the loss of your precious children. I am also a blogger and mother with a son in heaven. I feel your pain and am praying for you today. May God bless you and continue to draw you nearer~ Terri

  13. Congratulations on 4 years! I found you through Babble and kept coming back because you’re and Army wife (me too, stationed in Korea!) and you are so honest. You’re blog really helps me to be courageous in my own writing and not worry about what people might think as they read. Thankyou!!

    Tiffany
    arillablog.com

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