This morning Sam went to the VA clinic for his first Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) evaluation. When he was active duty, but almost at the end of it, his doctors recommended he get checked for this. His war experience and several incidents that happened there all led them to feel like there may be more than PSTD alone in many of the things he deals with.
I have mixed feelings about this. Of course I don’t want my husband to have a TBI. Yet he does or doesn’t – my wanting has nothing to do with it at this point. The part of this I hope for is if it’s a TBI, they can begin to treat him differently as a patient than someone with PTSD and physical injuries alone.
This is a rather new kind of injury in the medical field from what I know. Knowledge wise, especially since it deals with the brain, there isn’t a huge amount of proven, tried and true information about it. I’m incredibly, incredibly thankful we live in a time where these things are being researched and spoken about. Can you imagine the wars before this when military men and women came home with invisible injuries and everyone thought they were just crazy and mean and angry and why couldn’t they just move on? And some of that still happens.
It makes me even more of an advocate for this. I realize how many slipped through the cracks before, and I don’t want it to keep going the same way.
Thank goodness we are so much more open about things today. I know it often bothers people, but I can’t imagine living these secret, suffocatingly perfect from the outside lives past generations were encouraged to live while dying on the inside and feeling so alone.
This is only the first eval of several, and honestly I’m brand new to this too so forgive me if you read something and think, “Wait, it’s actually like this” – and let me know! I’ve researched and talked to Sam about this process but until we’re going through it, I really don’t have a firm grasp on all it entails.
Please pray for Sam’s nerves today, I know he has mixed feelings about this as well and while this affects the girls and me, it’s his whole life.