Seven Years

January 8, 2017

Seven years ago I started my blog with a post about Bella’s reflux.

I was on Blogspot and remember feeling very overwhelmed by it all. The header and design seemed overwhelming to figure out. Luckily I was able to use different colors and styles of fonts in my writing. Because that’s the most important thing, making sure people want to gouge their eyes out as they read your blog.

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I have never regretted writing on here. I’ve had some hard months, times where I didn’t want to write, and more than one nasty comment – but this blog changed our lives. It started out as something to do because I was bored, we were snowed in a lot, and Bella wasn’t even two months old. Sam worked all the time and we had one car that he took during the day. I lived in a small town at the time, and my outlet was when I discovered mom blogs.

It was like an entire new world opened up for me.

For the first time in my entire life, I felt like maybe I wasn’t odd or an outsider. Other moms my age loved to read, loved to write, loved to be alone. They loved their children and yet felt a longing to create and be seen outside of their homes. They wrote about work, colic, their marriages, medications, PPD, friendships and moves. I ended up making some of my closest friends from the bloggers I read, other women who understood and loved me and my quirks – even through my ups and downs as years passed.

I’ve experienced people who felt for us so deeply, ones who loved my children almost as much as I did even though they were thousands of miles away. We’ve been on the receiving end of incredible generosity and kindness. I’ve also felt the sting of jealousy and misunderstanding (mine and others). Sometimes these relationships ended with me realizing just who could see past the 15 minutes of fame I didn’t ask for, to my very broken heart trying to find anything to make me happy for a little while.

Many, many times over the past 4 1/2 years, this blog and what it brought to me saved me from drowning in my sorrow. It helped to pull me along until I could breathe a little again.

If you’ve been here all seven years or found me today – thank you for reading. Maybe one day I’ll get to hug you and thank you for all you did and do for us.

12 Comments

  • Elizabeth

    January 10, 2017 at 9:25 am

    I remember being in the same chat room with you (thebump maybe?) when we were both pregnant with our first babies. I never really commented, but enjoyed all the drama associated with it. I starting reading your blog and the Heir to Blair.
    Ha! It seems so funny now that we are seven years removed from the bliss of first babies and all of our “struggles.” I am glad you are writing again!

  • Misty Pratt

    January 9, 2017 at 12:15 pm

    I’ve been reading since close to the beginning 🙂 With a baby the same age who had reflux, we had a lot in common!! Thanks for sharing your life with us.

  • Jesica

    January 9, 2017 at 6:23 am

    hi Diana,
    I have never posted on here, but always read your post. I discovered your blog when you had your twins,i think it was May 3rd 2012? My Daughter Bella was born on May 4th i was amazed you had a Bella too. I love reading your blogs! Hugs

    1. Diana

      January 14, 2017 at 10:06 pm

      Thank you for reading here so long – and it was May 3rd!

  • Meredith

    January 8, 2017 at 8:50 pm

    Diana, I started reading your blog bc hormonal imbalances was linked from Pioneer Woman’s site a while back. Then when your sweet twins were born she tweeted out that prayer was needed….so I kind of credit me reading your blog, plus everything I ever cook to PW ;)…ha! you may feel weary of writing and wondering if anyone’s reading but you have a gift. The story of you, your marriage, your boys, your girls…it all matters in Gods eyes and I as a reader love to see how He is moving you. Even though I don’t know you and prob won’t ever meet you this side of Heaven, it makes us all feel connected to share and read one another’s stories. Keep on writing!

    1. Diana

      January 14, 2017 at 10:09 pm

      Thank you for this. Really. Deep down I know God is in this with us, that He’s made beauty from ashes, but there are very hard moments when I wonder what happened to our lives. So your words are a reassurance and a reminder. Thank you.

  • Catie

    January 8, 2017 at 2:47 pm

    Diana, I started following your story right when you lost your sweet boys, Preston & Julian. About 2 weeks after they passed, we (very shockingly) lost a baby too. Then, crazily enough, we got pregnant again at the same time you found out about Charlotte. Our son, Asher, is just a couple of days older than her (he was Oct 24). So many times your blog has acted as a balm to my aching heart. You’ve helped me to articulate many emotions I was unable to do myself. I talk about your blog and instagram pictures as if you were one of my closest friends … my husband even knows you by name! I hope that’s not too stalker-ish, ha! Thank you for your honesty and open heart. You’ve helped me more than you’ll ever know.

    1. Diana

      January 14, 2017 at 10:10 pm

      I love this ❤❤ and I love that our kids are so close together! Both times. I’m so very sorry for the loss of your baby and I’m so glad you stuck around here ❤

  • Leanna

    January 8, 2017 at 2:39 pm

    I love your writing, Diana. I love writing too. Somehow the writing even if no one reads it, has a healing quality to it. So keep it up!! You are blessing us and encouraging us. As moms and as people!

    1. Diana

      January 14, 2017 at 10:11 pm

      My therapist has told me that forever. Write anyway. I tend to get in a mode where I think it doesn’t matter and then it takes a while before I realize how much it affects me. Thank you for reading!

  • Jennifer @ WrittenByJennifer

    January 8, 2017 at 1:38 pm

    Happy seven years! I feel like I “met” you on Twitter about a year into your blogging and then another two years before I met you at BlogHer. I hope you keep writing here. 🙂

  • Rachel Strouf

    January 8, 2017 at 1:38 pm

    Diana, I stumbled across your blog a few years ago, and I’ve gotta say, you are such a blessing. Your writing is a blessing. Your transparency is a blessing. Your sharing your pain and knowledge and growth and suffering and love… blessings and a gift. Thank you for all it takes to do what you do. I’m praying for you lady… praying for God to continue to work out all the things that will get you to enjoy Jesus fully. The beginning and end of all our stories.

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