Yesterday I was just stepping out of the shower when Bella came in and announced, “Char woke up from her nap, I can hear her in there, can I go in?”
“Sure,” I said. I love that she wants to do this, but of course I had to add my little reminder because I too have siblings: “But Bella, be kind ok?” Mostly she is. But Char has her own personality and at times it can be even hard for me not to get frustrated.
Especially when she throws a block off your face.
A nod and off Bella skipped. I heard them laughing and playing and then it got a bit quiet. I had myself semi-presentable (so if the UPS man showed up he wouldn’t wonder if I had 25 cats and used their hair to make gifts) – (no that is a real thing) so I went to Char’s room to see what they were doing.
Bella was reading to Char. She’d found one of the books I’d read to her when she was little (this is a new one because Bella, like Char, tends to love her books so hard they don’t make it). She was reading to her, showing her the things on the page that moved. Her little feet tucked underneath her, Char’s whispy head of hair peeking over the rail just enough.
I stood there for a moment and then quietly took a picture so I wouldn’t forget this moment. Lately things have gone so very fast around here. I think as I watch some stage they go through, “We have to get that on camera” and then it’s gone.
Bella turned after a moment and grinned at me. “She loves me reading to her.”
I nodded, wondering if these two will have any idea of the amount of joy they bring me and the days I wondered if we would ever have a moment like this. One where Bella would be able to read to a sibling, to introduce her to all the things she loved at that stage too.
I’m so very glad I held on to just a little bit of those hopes and dreams in the moments I thought it was impossible.
“Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.” – Langston Hughes