Today I took Char to the park. That may not seem like the most life altering activity, but the way it came about was kind of a moment of realization for me. Her and I were driving home from dropping Bella off at school. Usually Sam takes her and I pick her up, but this…
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On Having Another
ContinueI’m folding laundry as Sam flips through his phone. It’s late and quiet, and we’re both lost in thought. I reach forward to grab another round of shirts and glance at him. “Where are you at on wanting another baby?” I ask it abruptly, because there doesn’t seem to be another way to go about…
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Mornings & Motherhood
ContinueEach morning we do just about the same routine. Bella and I wake up around the same time, Char wakes up a few minutes later. I change her while Bella distracts her on the changing table (she hasn’t ever liked her diaper being changed) and we head downstairs. Breakfast varies. I love making hard and…
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Getting Out
ContinueToday was a crummy day. Everyone, including me, was in a bit of a bad mood from the start. Nothing really happened, but nothing happened to stop it either. So all of us got crankier with each other. At lunch I looked around at my two fussy girls and my own dismal self and announced,…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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