When Sam is gone, one of the more irrational fears that plagues me every time is something happening with the cars. I have no idea how this worry is so important in my mind, but it is. I’ve stressed more about it than most other than you’d think would be top of the “irrational” list.…
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The Fear of Almost There
ContinueWhen I was around 24 weeks pregnant with Kaden, everyone gave a huge sigh of relief. I’d made it to the “safe(r)” zone and past where I’d lost Preston and Julian. His ultrasounds were good. My cerclage was in place and things weren’t changing down there. I remember my OB saying after an ultrasound, “Things look…
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6 Months Without Zoloft
ContinueAs most of you know by now, I’ve taken almost no medication this pregnancy. In fact, besides prenatals and extra vitamins/minerals recommended by the HHV-6 Foundation, the only thing I’ve taken is about six Tylenol at times I had a severe migraine so bad I was vomiting, and hip pain that made me unable to sleep/walk.…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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