In the mornings when we have nowhere to go, I’ll sometimes let myself stay in pajamas till noon. When Bella goes down for a nap. This tends to work out well most days. My pajamas are not – they’re not usually thick. They consist of yoga pants and a flimsy t shirt. Sometimes no pants. Hey…
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The Anatomy of an Anxiety Attack
ContinueIn the past few weeks, I’ve really been working on stopping thoughts that spin out of control into full blown, “OMG RUN FOR COVER WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE” episodes. It’s hard to catch them because often I don’t even realize I’m thinking/playing the scenes in my head until I’m distracted. But yesterday, I had…
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It’s stress. Not sadness.
ContinueI’m not depressed. I know that depression and anxiety usually are like twins, but I don’t feel that way. I feel anxious. A lot. I don’t feel sad. Or alone. Or depressed.
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
{Writing on}
