Baby-led weaning. It sounds all special, but it’s just cuz I’m lazy.
I had very definite ideas of how long I’d breastfeed Bella. One year. Maybe less if my nipples happened to fall off due to never healing. I hated it. The constant pain. The letdown that made me so uncomfortable. Feeding in public and trying to not flash everyone. The stupid nursing covers that smothered her and made me sweat like a whore in church (excepting Baby Bond). I hated it.
14 months later? We’re still nursing.
Not much, once in the morning and once before bed. Occasionally if she gets really upset/scared about something. And while it sounds so ultra-motherly, and like I’m trying to be all high and mighty that I’m still bf’ing – it’s not. The real reason is?
I don’t know how else to get her to go to sleep, or what to do instead of the nursing routine we have. And I’m not to keen on figuring it out right at 2am while she’s pounding her hands against my shirt. It’s a heck of a lot easier to whip out a boob to get her to go back to sleep at night then to lay and listen to her howl on the monitor.
Basically I’m lazy.
Also, it was so awful those first few months to nurse her through cracked nipples, plugged ducts and mastitis that now I just want to enjoy the time with her. We’ve got it down, and I feel as if it’s one of the only times during the day she just rests with me. It’s five minutes where she’s simply still and I get to enjoy looking at her little ears and fingers and toes.
While I don’t want to be the mother who nurses her kid for kindergarten snack (please no), I also can see how it happens. It just becomes something you don’t really think about anymore.
Sam asked the other day if Bella was “too old” for it – he didn’t ask it to be all, “Holy moses honey, her legs are hanging off the side of the chair.” I realized that he didn’t really understand how I felt about it. I had been so adamant at stopping at a year that he was left in the dark. So I talked to him about how with all the stress we have coming up, I wanted to let her continue for a while. He supports me 100%.
Eventually I would like her to wean, because getting up at 6am to nurse her is tiring. But since us three are comfortable with it right now, I’m going to plug away at it. It’s really no one’s business how long someone’s child nurses. It’s a personal choice a family makes.
You know, unless you share it on your blog for everyone to read. Then? Not so personal or private. But that’s ok. Maybe you’re reading this and feeling better because you’re lazy too.
Do any of you plan to do (or did) baby-led weaning? What’s your reason?
If not, how did you wean? How long did it take?