I’m kind of blindly updating my weeks as I go until I get a definite date – but it’s about as close as I can make it. As far as I can tell, I was 5 weeks yesterday. My baby is the size of an apple seed.
I’ve got the usual symptoms – heartburn, peeing frequently, nausea, heightened sense of smell, headaches, dizziness, and mood swings. Thankfully the nausea hadn’t included any throwing up. Yet. I can totally handle this feeling of just being queasy.
Couple of funny things: remember how your first go around with pregnancy everyone ::coughTheBumpcough:: told you there was NO WAY you could already have to pee so often because the baby was so small? I read this the other day, and it explains that you actually do:
So ha. We’re not crazy.
As for mood swings…
The other day I’m driving on the freeway and ahead of me on the road, the police pull out and block things off. As I watch, wondering if it’ll be someone important, a hearse drives ahead of them with a line of cars following behind. All the exits from the freeway are blocked as they pass.
And in my car, I watch them and start to think, “Now isn’t that heartwarming. The police are making sure this poor family grieves in peace.” I feel a tingle in my eyes. “It’s just like America to be respectful of this. There’s probably someone wonderful in the hearse, someone who changed lives. A real hero. They’re all following behind crying, remembering them. Honoring their legacy.”
Just like that, I start to bawl. In the car. 65mph. And I can’t stop. I’m crying so hard I have to take off my sunglasses to wipe my eyes faster as I think about how darn amazing America is that we can bury dead heroes as a country unified in making sure that family gets to the cemetary all together at the same time.
And while of course someone dying is sad and should be a time to grieve, having a random woman on the other side of the road in near hysterics over it and America probably isn’t what anyone in that family is focusing on.
So even though I often wonder what on earth I was thinking when I named my blog, it turns out for the next 8+ months it should fit quite nicely.