I was going to do a whole post on here about loss, since today is the day of Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness.
But then I realized – life kinda sucks right now.
I’m 5 months out and really don’t want to remember. I wanted them.
I’m not ready to be ok with this yet. As wonderful as the loss community has been, being a part of it means I lost something I loved and wanted.
So today, with no babies, no adoption, and no idea of what will happen next, I simply give my life to God again and say, “You have it.”
I get to be sad and angry and feel lost today. We’ve been through a lot and it wasn’t what I expected. I never wanted October 15th to be anything personal to me.
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Babble:
Timeline of an International Adoption
Pregnant Patients and the Hospital: Know Your Rights
Alcoholism, Adoption, and Honesty
Attachment Parenting International:
Beyond Babies: Attachment Parenting in the Later Years
World Moms Blog: