October 15, 2013

This post contains pictures which may trigger another loss parent.

Today is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I’m sure many of you are seeing your feeds in all social media outlets filled with pictures and words of remembering babies – yours and others.

If you haven’t lost a child – in pregnancy or after – please still take a small amount of time today to stop and really read one of these statuses. If you don’t know what to say – that’s ok! I still don’t either. Just leave a heart or a “thinking of you” – something. Saying something small is better than saying nothing at all.

Today I remember my 3 babies. Preston, Julian, and Kaden. I have trouble finding words today on what it means to pass this date again, with another baby gone. I just don’t know what to say.

However, I’m hoping my intro and words at Still Standing will be enough to honor the three little lives that have shaken mine for eternity. This is my first post as a new contributor over there, I hope you’ll go and read and share it with other moms who are facing the same, unending sense of loss today.

I miss you boys. I’m proud I was able to share all your photos this year. Regardless of what anyone might think or say. You were all real. All alive. All my sons.

All loved.


the boys


  • Numb | DianaWrote

    October 15, 2014 at 4:38 pm

    […] Last year I’d added Kaden to the list. Three. I was a bit more ready to say something that day, share their pictures, defy anyone who would dare to tell me that Preston and Julian weren’t just as much my babies as he was. […]

  • Homeschool Day in the Life {Right Now} and a Little About Us

    January 20, 2014 at 10:02 am

    […] is 4 and the light of my husband Sam’s and my life. Our most profound story is of losing our 3 sons, Preston and Julian – identical twins born too soon at 20 weeks in May of 2012, and Kaden […]

  • Nikki

    October 17, 2013 at 7:41 am

    Thinking and praying for you and your family.

  • Bad Egg

    October 16, 2013 at 3:43 pm

    When I was reminded of today’s significance, I immediately thought of you, Diana. Thank you for your bravery in shedding light on such a painful subject. You are amazing.

  • Me

    October 16, 2013 at 2:56 pm

    Thinking of you from far far away.

  • Melissa

    October 16, 2013 at 2:16 pm

    Love to you. My baby girl passed away 22 years ago last month. We will hold them again in Heaven…but the waiting for that blessed day is really hard for me sometimes. You are not alone and I pray for you and your family. You amaze me with your spirit and heart.

  • Jen @ Go Green

    October 16, 2013 at 12:31 pm

    All your babies are beautiful. Thinking of you.

  • Katie Emrick

    October 16, 2013 at 4:29 pm

    Beautiful babies.

  • Maria

    October 16, 2013 at 8:40 am

    Remembering your little guys today and everyday…praying for you

  • Kathy Lambert

    October 16, 2013 at 2:19 pm

    Thinking of you and Tim.

  • Ayesha Sarangi-McKee

    October 16, 2013 at 1:04 pm

    I have been following your journey for about a year, and was very excited to follow your pregnancy journey after the loss of your twins. I can't imagine the heartbreak you must have experienced losing Kaden and the twins, my heart goes out to you and your family for all you have had to endure.

  • Shari

    October 16, 2013 at 6:44 am

    Thinking of you and your family. <3

  • Ashia-Latasha Marie Collins

    October 16, 2013 at 6:04 am

    Even just a few words are a lot, I too lost twin boys the same month and year as you. I have been reading your blog since then and you ate amazingly strong and you have a beautiful strong family.

  • Allison

    October 15, 2013 at 9:16 pm

    Thank you for sharing their stories with us. I still think about you all the time and my heart aches for you. Continuing to lift you all up in prayer. God bless.

  • Jessica Cruz

    October 16, 2013 at 3:07 am

    God Bless you, and those precious beautiful boys. They are so beautiful, may they rest in peace. I will pray for you all always!

  • Lauren

    October 15, 2013 at 8:43 pm

    Love to your beautiful family. <3

  • Anna @ IHOD

    October 15, 2013 at 7:07 pm

    You children were a light in this world and are in the next as well. Thank you for sharing their story. My family prayed for you and all mothers who have lost tonight. <3

  • Lisa Rouseau

    October 16, 2013 at 12:46 am

    13 babies and 13 candles in the window tonight. There are no words of comfort.

  • Maggie Pascarelli

    October 16, 2013 at 12:24 am

    God bless all mothers who can no longer or never could hold their babies. I have 2 treasurexs waiting for me in Heaven. ♡♡

  • Debbie Nuckolls Walker

    October 16, 2013 at 12:24 am


  • Sarah C. (@2pawsdesigns)

    October 15, 2013 at 5:51 pm

    Thinking of you and your family today. My candle is lit as much for your boys as my own angels. ((HUGS))

  • Kristin Stewart

    October 15, 2013 at 5:36 pm

    They are all so beautiful. Hugs to you.

  • Valanne

    October 15, 2013 at 4:41 pm

    Hugs and warm thoughts of your precious family.

  • Marie Causey

    October 15, 2013 at 9:36 pm


  • tricia

    October 15, 2013 at 2:28 pm

    love you. love your babies.

  • Maggie

    October 15, 2013 at 2:15 pm

    Thinking of your family a little extra today.

  • Elise N Hoffman

    October 15, 2013 at 7:43 pm

    Bawling… they are all so beautiful. <3

  • April

    October 15, 2013 at 12:49 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing with us the pictures of your beautiful babes. I didn’t realize it was Infant Loss awareness month until I got a response back from someone at a church who is “fielding” emails on a dinner that is being held for ladies who have lost their babies, myself included. I’m grateful for the support.
    {HUGS} to you!

  • Hillary

    October 15, 2013 at 11:58 am

    Beautiful photos of your precious boys. I have been following your blog for the past couple of months and my heart goes out to you and your family. Prayers for you and your family on this day and all to come. Praying for hope filled days and a peaceful heart!

  • jess

    October 15, 2013 at 11:57 am


  • Amy Sulpazo

    October 15, 2013 at 5:10 pm

    I thought of you and your family this morning when I read that it was pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. Your loss is so heartbreaking that there are no words to express the outrage and sorrow I feel for you all. My prayers continue.

  • Amy

    October 15, 2013 at 11:09 am

    Such handsome, beautiful boys, Diana. My heart breaks for you, Sam, and Bella. I think about your family often and lift your names to God and ask that He hold you tight and whisper his comfort and peace into all of your hearts.

  • Michelle MacNeil

    October 15, 2013 at 5:07 pm


  • Mylene

    October 15, 2013 at 10:28 am

    Thinking of you and all of the parents who have lost a precious child today. -xxx-

  • jenn

    October 15, 2013 at 10:27 am


  • colleen

    October 15, 2013 at 10:24 am

    Thinking of you ♥ Remembering your beautiful boys.

  • Kathy S

    October 15, 2013 at 10:21 am

    Thoughts and prayer to you. I to remember my son on a daily basis. He was still born 13 years ago.

  • Sarah

    October 15, 2013 at 10:20 am

    Thinking of you today along with all the mommies and daddies who have babies waiting for them in Heaven. *hugs*

  • Allison

    October 15, 2013 at 10:20 am

    You are in my thoughts so often, Diana. Your words are beautiful and so are your sons.

  • Casey

    October 15, 2013 at 10:18 am

    Thinking of you often. And your boys. All the love.

  • Laura

    October 15, 2013 at 10:18 am

    I’ve been reading your blog for a while, all during your pregnancy. I have never known what to say, but I want you to know that you, your family and your sweet boys have been in my heart and randomly come to my mind at the strangest times. I am so very, deeply sorry for your losses and your pain, but I am so thankful for you sharing your experiences and stories. Your boys will live on through you and through those you have shared their lives with. I pray that you will continue to heal.

  • Elizabeth Barone

    October 15, 2013 at 10:10 am

    Sending hugs and love to you, Diana, and all the other parents who have lost their children.

  • Rachael Hudson Mitchell

    October 15, 2013 at 4:10 pm

    "Daddy please don't look so sad, momma please don't cry.
    Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus, and he sings me lullabies.
    Please try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
    Don't think he sent me to you and then changed his mind.
    You see I'm a special child, I am needed up above.
    I'm the special gift you gave Him, a product of your love.
    I'll always be there with you, so watch the sky at night.
    Look for the brightest star and know that's my halo's brilliant light.
    You'll see me in the morning frost that mists your window pane.
    That's me in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain.
    When you feel a gentle breeze from a gentle wind that blows.
    Know that it's me planting a kiss upon your nose.
    When you see a child playing and your heart feels a tug,
    Don't be sad mommy, that's just me giving your heart a hug.
    So daddy don't looks so sad and momma please don't cry.
    I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies!

  • Becky Campbell

    October 15, 2013 at 4:08 pm

    Beautiful photos…gorgeous babies…<3 Thank you for sharing!! I lost a very early pregnancy and I wonder…alot. (S)he would be 5 now…and I still remember and hurt! :'( I'm thinking of you and all the moms, dads and babies that don't get to be together today!!

  • Deanna

    October 15, 2013 at 10:06 am

    My heart hurts for you, Diana. I’m praying for you and remembering your precious sons.

  • sabrina

    October 15, 2013 at 10:02 am

    So beautiful, so precious! Thinking and praying for you lots.

  • Shauna

    October 15, 2013 at 9:57 am


  • Susanne Kuhn

    October 15, 2013 at 3:56 pm


  • Andrea McConnell

    October 15, 2013 at 3:55 pm

    Whoops, guess he was logged in to fb when I posted this! Lol…

  • Claudia Veltman

    October 15, 2013 at 9:53 am

    Thinking of you today, i just can’t even realize how hard this must be for you ! and i’m really sorry for that and for everyone that has pass through this ! im just gonna keep praying and hoping for a little bit of healing for you really hard in my heart ! <3

  • Stephanie Apodaca

    October 15, 2013 at 3:51 pm

    . Sorry for all three of your losses. No one should have to go through what your had had to. Thoughts are with you & your family.

  • Rebecca

    October 15, 2013 at 9:49 am

    They are all so beautiful <3

  • Jessica

    October 15, 2013 at 9:48 am

    I shared March of Dimes picture this morning and as I did I had you in my heart. Thinking and praying for you today and every day.

  • Cole Chartier

    October 15, 2013 at 3:48 pm

    all so precious! hard to tell from Julian's picture but you can definitely tell Preston and Kaden look alike….constantly thinking of you sam and bella, praying for you all and the boys

  • Becca

    October 15, 2013 at 9:47 am

    I am so sorry, Diana. Praying for peace for your heart, hugs.

  • Julie Sansone

    October 15, 2013 at 3:46 pm

    I never knew what to say, Diana, but my heart aches for you. Sending positive thoughts and healing energy from NJ. <3

  • John McConnell

    October 15, 2013 at 3:46 pm

    Oh precious babies!! Remembering my little Christian Ainsley just lost 9/26 as well as all those of my loved ones and friends today! I have my candle burning all day! Hugs to you and Sam and Bella. Thank you for posting pics of your sweet boys! Loved by many!

  • Courtney

    October 15, 2013 at 9:41 am

    This just breaks my heart. I don’t understand it. The picture of Kaden holding your finger wrecks me every time I see it. I hate this for you so very much. <3

  • MC

    October 15, 2013 at 9:40 am

    Sending you love and prayers today. Those boys were all lucky to have you as their mother. <3

  • Jessica Osorio

    October 15, 2013 at 9:39 am


  • Courtney B

    October 15, 2013 at 9:38 am

    They are all beautiful! Praying for you and many friends today who have lost precious children.

  • A.M.

    October 15, 2013 at 9:36 am

    Sending good thoughts and prayers your way, and to anyone else that has lost a baby.

  • Haley

    October 15, 2013 at 9:35 am

    Precious boys!!! Love and prayers to you, Diana!

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