I have 11 cartons of Girl Scout cookies in my car.
Oh, wait. Sorry. Day 22 of Whole30 and sugar is still my #1 kicker on this.
So that’s not the big news at all (in fact those cookies are to sell). It has to do with Zimbabwe, me, the boys, these past nearly 3 years, and my therapist.
Like some kind of a random riddle.
I’m going back to school. To become a grief and loss therapist.
I’ve been accepted into Liberty University’s online program to finish my Bachelor’s degree – switching from Elementary Ed to Psychology/Christian Counseling – minor in International Studies.
My hope is that one day, I’ll be able to work with women (and men) both here and internationally that have lost a child during or after pregnancy.
I was so close to finishing my degree when I found out I was pregnant with the twins – and student teaching was up next. I never went back after I lost them, and started pulling in money with my writing so didn’t think much of it. Until Kaden died. Then I couldn’t stop thinking about my own healing and others who didn’t have the resources God put in place for me.
In the 2 1/2 years I’ve been in therapy, I’ve learned so, so much from my therapist. She is an incredible woman who chose a rather hard and unknown road in grief and loss therapy for perinatal/neonatal loss. She’s literally changed our lives (although she would tell you she gave us the tools to change our own 😉 ). I’ve thought about doing this for probably a little over a year now, but going to Zimbabwe was the jumping off point. I can’t change the fact that there will always be child loss. We can help with organizations that are working to change the rate of loss, but nothing will eliminate it. But no one, anywhere, should feel that they can’t ever speak about their child again, no matter how early, late, or traumatic.
I’m a little terrified – to be honest. I have a million thoughts of how this won’t matter, it’s a lot of money, what if I do this and no one cares enough to use my services? But it’s been on my heart for so long, and I have the full support of Sam, family, and friends.
Money-wise, well, I wish we could still use trade or bartering services. It’s expensive to do this – we already have student loans. Liberty generously gave us a discount due to being military, I’ve applied for a few scholarships, but I’ll still be working/writing to make ends meet and hopefully not add a lot more to my debt. If you click on my ads here, or use my affiliate links to make your purchases, or just read the sponsored posts that go up every so often – that helps so much. I don’t make a ton, but it covers books and some childcare for Bella!
So that’s my big news. Hopefully in a year or two I’ll be telling you all about starting my Master’s and getting licensed. 🙂 Which autocorrect tried to change to “silenced” so there’s that. lol
I’m so very excited to do this, to give back in some small way. I can’t wait to see where God leads as I pursue this journey.