I don’t even know how to begin posts asking for prayer anymore.
Don’t anyone worry – it’s not about something that’s wrong. Everything with me and this baby are ok. But, we asked our doctor today to refer us for a fetal echocardiogram (a detailed ultrasound of the heart that can also measure blood flow) to rule out cardiomyopathy. Her heart looks great on the bi-weekly ultrasounds – but again, so did Kaden’s. Always.
We weren’t sure what they would say, thankfully they all agreed that it was an absolutely legitimate request due to our history. It needs to be done fairly soon, so we should know by the end of this week/start of next if our insurance approved it, and if not – can we afford to pay out-of-pocket for one to be done.
Why I say I don’t know how to ask for prayers is simple – I have no idea what to ask for anymore. I don’t want to consider prayer the “magic lamp” of life, but it’s hard to get away from that mentality. If I pray right, things will be ok. Thousands of you prayed for Kaden and I’m sure covered about every possible thing, and yet… So that leaves me a bit empty-handed before God, shuffling around without words and wondering at times why I bother praying at all.
But here we stand again, believing that prayer is more than getting what we want, and knowing that some of you are deeply engaged in praying for us and this baby – and we love that. I often think of the people who told me, “I printed out what you needed prayer on this time around” – just wow. That moves me to tears.
As I thought of how to write this, my heart was prompted to share her name, so that those of you who are praying can use it.
Before I share though, a story (because really, what’s an announcement without a story):
When we found out we were having a girl, Sam and I went back and forth on sharing her name online. We didn’t with any of the boys until they were born (or maybe shortly before with the twins) and decided this time we would wait too. Then about a week or so later I felt this urge to share, but kept thinking, “Who is going to pick our name? It’s fine.”
And THE NEXT DAY I woke up to a CNN alert on my phone that Princess (Duchess?) Kate named her baby Charlotte Elizabeth Diana and I fell out of my bed.
Obviously I’m Diana. My middle name is Elizabeth.
Our daughter’s name is Charlotte. 🙂
Because I’m hormonal I actually cried in rage lol. I can laugh now at it, but then I was so, so irrationally mad. I told Sam, “She took all the names! Everyone is going to think I named our baby Charlotte because Kate did,” and typical guy, he says, “Psssh, no one cares about the royals over here,” and I was like, “WHAT FACEBOOK DO YOU LOG INTO?”
It was so cute how adamant he was we not choose another name. “She’s Charlotte,” he said firmly. That sealed it for me.
We chose Charlotte actually because of Bella. I told her she could help in choosing a name, and one day after her hourly class on post, she said, “Oh mama, there was a little girl in my class today named Charlotte and I think we should name the baby that if it’s a girl.” I came home and told Sam, and we both just fell in love with it. We tried a few others but Charlotte stuck.
We’re still going back and forth on a middle name.
So that’s her name story and I just love it all now. We would ask for you to pray for the insurance approval, and a perfectly healthy heart on her echocardiogram. We also ask that you pray for our anxiety, and reminders that no matter what – God works in and through these moments of our lives. And of course, anything else you all want to throw in during prayer – go for it. 😉 We will take it all.
Our little Charlotte Stone. You are so loved and prayed for – and we couldn’t ask for more now.