• How This Feels

    November 27, 2015

    I’ve been asked many times the past month how it feels to have Charlotte here after losing three babies. I appreciate these questions more than anyone could know, because they’re always followed with, “Of course it’s not like she makes everything better.” Yes – exactly. That’s so validating to hear along with the genuine interest…

  • What Lies Ahead

    October 14, 2015

    It’s Monday night and we’re finishing up Bella’s bedtime routine with a book and prayer. I glance at her little head bowed and her hands clasped as I hear her repeat words she’s said for months, “Please keep baby Charlotte big and strong and let her come home.” I realize that although we’ve talked a…

  • Waiting

    October 2, 2015

    I’m 36 weeks 4 days today. And we’re just in a holding pattern here. Wednesday I spent ALL DAY in triage after my regular appt showed my blood pressure through the roof. So I laid in a hospital bed with Sam in the chair next to me and the cuff squeezing my arm every 10…

  • The Fear of Almost There

    September 16, 2015

    When I was around 24 weeks pregnant with Kaden, everyone gave a huge sigh of relief. I’d made it to the “safe(r)” zone and past where I’d lost Preston and Julian. His ultrasounds were good. My cerclage was in place and things weren’t changing¬†down there. I remember my OB saying after an ultrasound, “Things look…

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