When I was 19 and Sam and I had been married all of 6 months, a girlfriend and I took off to live in India for a month in the summer of 2003. Sam was overseas in the Marines at the time. We stayed with a missionary family my church supported and worked at an…
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On Grief, Anger, Christianity, and Womanhood
ContinueToday I’ve thought a lot about how these four fit together as I stumble my way hour by hour to a life thrust on me I never wanted. A mother of two angel sons. I hesitated posting what I did yesterday because I didn’t want to be a disappointment to anyone, or to come across…
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Fearfully and Wonderfully Made
ContinueJulian Toby and Preston William were born this morning. Julian passed away a few minutes after being born. Sam and I got to be with Preston for nearly 2 hours before he went to be with Jesus. My heart is broken. I honestly feel like I can’t breathe most of the time, the pain is…
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What Happened
ContinueThis post has been written many times. But it’s hard for me to rehash it all so it took a while to get done. I do want to start by saying the apology, explanation, and further treatment at our hospital has been phenomenal. We found out that it was a lack of resident communication that started…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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