This has been a brutally honest pregnancy all the way around. From our doctors, therapist, friends, family – everyone has really understood the high risks and respected what has happened twice before. Rarely do I hear a flippant response anymore, except from someone who either doesn’t know our history or does but can’t process it…
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Prayers {& a Baby Name!}
ContinueI don’t even know how to begin posts asking for prayer anymore. Don’t anyone worry – it’s not about something that’s wrong. Everything with me and this baby are ok. But, we asked our doctor today to refer us for a fetal echocardiogram (a detailed ultrasound of the heart that can also measure blood flow)…
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Hope Intertwined
ContinueIt’s fairly easy to talk myself into a “rational” state this pregnancy. For a while. I will not get too invested. Invested just enough. I will not plan for after. I will not allow myself to daydream too much. I will stay calm and practical about this all. I will not be surprised by pain…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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