When Charlotte was about 4/5 days old I fell apart. Everything kicked in. Hormones. My milk came in. It all hurt. She stopped sleeping at night. All of postpartum compounded and on top of it all – she looked so much like Kaden. I only had him for exactly 3 weeks. So for that first month with her,…
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Accepting the Unacceptable
ContinueKatie blogs at Sluiter Nation about life with her two boys as a working mom – and is also an amazing human being. It’s an honor to have her tell this story of second time PPD on my blog. —————- Four years ago I found out I was pregnant with my oldest son. This was my third…
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How it Feels to be on Zoloft
ContinueI’ve never been on meds. Excepting Zofran for the constant need to barf while pregnant, I’ve never taken anything besides the occasional Tylenol. So one night when I broke down and told Sam I thought something was wrong, I couldn’t handle the constant fear that life was going to continue to spiral, that the boys…
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Postpartum Anxiety/Depression after the Loss of a Baby
ContinueI didn’t know this could happen. I had no idea that you could experience postpartum anxiety or postpartum depression after the loss of a baby or a miscarriage. I mean, it makes sense. I think I just figured it happened from lack of sleep, nursing, hormones, etc. If you lost a child, you grieved. You…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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