We waited till Bella turned two before trying for another. When we finally wrapped our head around another. We wanted the kids to be enough apart that I wouldn’t have two in diapers. Two tiny ones screaming. One of the two would be able to be communicated with. I’d still have naps to blog –…
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Behind
ContinueLately I’ve felt really behind on everything. Writing. Cleaning. Cooking. Bella. Myself. Life. It’s a tough spot, mentally, for me. I have a hard time accepting things can be let go for a while and the world won’t fall apart. There is an ever nagging fear inside of me that if I don’t make sure…
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Surprise Snow and MASSIVE Cuteness
ContinueSo remember how this summer when we moved here to El Paso it was pretty much 105*-108* for a like a month? And I realized that I might never, ever see snow again because, after all, this is the desert. I pretty much reconciled myself to the fact that for the 3 years that we…
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Should my 2 year old still have a pacifier?
ContinueWe had Bella’s 2 year Dr. appointment today. Why is it that I always feel so on guard and defensive with doctors? Sure I don’t like to be told what to do. I think we’ve established that nicely on here the past 2 years. But part of me feels like it’s the same thing they’d…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
{Writing on}
