The wand moves around on my stomach. Sam and I peer at the monitor above and listen to the tech chat about heartbeats and measuring me and how I charted. I tell her, “I’m 9 weeks 1 day according to my charting, so it’ll be interesting to see how close the baby is to that.”…
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First Midwife Appointment – I was listened to.
ContinueIt’s taken me all evening and night to process how to write the impact of a caring medical person on a nervous to-be mother. But when I walked into my midwife’s clinic yesterday, I knew from the moment I met the first nurse that this was it. I had found the place I needed to…
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Guess What? {TTC update & an italic overload}
ContinueSo you all know we’re TTC with the FAM method (charting/temping). Since Dec. 8th I’ve hunkered down and started charting for reals. And this past week I’ve been: exhausted achy bloated hungry ravenous having to pee all the time gassy (that’s just plain delightful to Sam – payback honey) irritable breaking out like I’m 15…
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Desert Beauty
ContinueWhen I slow down and take a closer look at where we live, I’m often surprised to see a kind of wild beauty around me that I never expected in a place quite barren of moisture and green. The small details remind me of the life that’s really inside the desert – besides sand. Jen…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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