Picture of me in Rwanda on a safari, 2022 I stopped blogging because I couldn’t write about it all anymore. There was too much. I was too overwhelmed. Bella was too old. Everything felt too broken. My blog started as something about me, as a mama floundering through sleepless nights, rough pregnancies, and then unimaginable…
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I see pride. I see power.
ContinueI loved Cool Runnings. I’d say 75% of the time I am thinking of the what if’s and the unknowns to come. Still trying to wrap my head around having two babies here at one time. I can’t. There is a point where my thoughts simply can’t go any further – like if you imagine…
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Family Spacing
ContinueWe waited till Bella turned two before trying for another. When we finally wrapped our head around another. We wanted the kids to be enough apart that I wouldn’t have two in diapers. Two tiny ones screaming. One of the two would be able to be communicated with. I’d still have naps to blog –…
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8 weeks pregnant
ContinueI figure, as long as this is my last pregnancy, and something I’ve wanted to document on my blog since starting it, well then heck – I better start living it up! I’ll be sick no matter what so I’ll just try to focus on the rest as often as possible. I finally get to…
{About Me}
Sam and I have been married since I was 19. He was 20. He's an OIF, medically retired veteran of the Army and Marines. We have 5 children - Bella was born in 2009 after a rather bumpy pregnancy and her first year was mostly crazy reflux. Preston and Julian, my identical twins, were born at 20 weeks in 2012 and lived only a few hours. Kaden was born full term in 2013 seemingly perfect, and at 4 days old he was found to have cardiomyopathy due to ciHHV-6. He passed away at 3 weeks old. Charlotte was born in 2015, and was a complete surprise to us. Each of them have changed our lives completely.
Currently I'm in school to become a counselor who focuses on trauma and grief.
I love Jesus - even though sometimes I get really angry and upset at the way our life has gone. I hope through my faults, insecurities, snarkiness, selfish nature, and general mess - my love for Christ and His work in my life shines through in my story.
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